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Would it have been too much if I told her didn't want her to leave? But then I guess it would I mean, boat trip, wake boarding who would trade that for anything right? I just wanted to spend time with her so I wouldn't miss her too much when she leaves for just a couple of days, almost a week. I know it's just a short time but based from today, the whole day was kind of hard to bear not having anyone to talk to at all. It was kind of sad. I mean I didn't want to sound or seem all sulky while talking to her just a while ago but kind of had my mood down already. I wanted her to stay home and all...but meh you can't really ask that right?
It's just about a week and I'm like this...what more when she leaves for college? I don't want to get used to not having her around. I dunno but I really fear how time can be a huge issue. How she'll be out with people and all that, college parties, studying and being busy...where do I fit in all that? I know she reassured me but I don't want to expect...I want to be prepared to the huge adjustment. Just, without her it's just so hard. All we have is chatting as is and I don't want that to disappear because that's our lifeline...and if it isn't as frequent as it is now, what's going to happen?
I'm not afraid of her losing it...I'm more afraid of myself.....I already don't have her here physically and that lack of time together cost me my last relationship...I don't trust myself.
This is shit.
It's just about a week and I'm like this...what more when she leaves for college? I don't want to get used to not having her around. I dunno but I really fear how time can be a huge issue. How she'll be out with people and all that, college parties, studying and being busy...where do I fit in all that? I know she reassured me but I don't want to expect...I want to be prepared to the huge adjustment. Just, without her it's just so hard. All we have is chatting as is and I don't want that to disappear because that's our lifeline...and if it isn't as frequent as it is now, what's going to happen?
I'm not afraid of her losing it...I'm more afraid of myself.....I already don't have her here physically and that lack of time together cost me my last relationship...I don't trust myself.
This is shit.