before the beginning of great brilliance & beauty there must first be a period of complete chaos ( Read more... )

i have always had difficulty determining the passage of time... it's part & parcel of being a right-brainer, i'm certain. but in the past 2 months that i have been, um... para-employed, it's gotten much worse/better (depending on your POV). i live only according to my biological urges- my body knows when to sleep, when to wake, when to eat... & ( Read more... )

i want to explain to angelo my thought process about the universe. the need to discuss it w/ him is rising to the surface now that il signore leopardo has come into being ( Read more... )

*universe, universe, my dear sweet universe... i love you. i think you heard me. you know i need this, you know it's what i asked for. we both know that this is it, right? please let this happen for me... please let this opportunity play out, come true... please let this happen. i am open, i am receptive, i am alllowing you to bring me the things i ( Read more... )

2 nights in a row i've dreamt about good looking men flirting w/ &/or dating me... the first night it was a dark-skinned mediterranean hottie... last night, i don't remember the features, but i'm thinking not so dark... so it got me thinking about everything i know about dating & i realize that i was 21 the last time i was 'available' & actively ( Read more... )

got 2 beers settling in my system, feeling good, feeling wordy, feeling like i should wax poetic on some existential subject, & as requested by my dear friend randellwolff the topic tonight is "knowing what i want" and so here we go... (or as those damn'd charming italians say: "allora!") ( Read more... )

i am perfectly content in my strange breed of singlehood... but if i were to take a full-time lover this is what he'd be like: ( Read more... )