a) ...that I hate Adam Smith's "Wealth of Nations ( Read more... )

It's just a bad idea to keep holding on to some grudges and to have such resentments of the past. So, stuff happened, and people treated me shitty or disappointed me or whatever. I just need to let it go and move on. It's hard sometimes, but I think, that, for the most part, I really have let go of a lot of the anger and resentment. But a little of ( Read more... )

I could stop and try to list every way in which my life has changed in the past year, or in the past six months alone. I could mention small changes in tiny details that no one else probably ever spends the time or energy needed to notice. Not this time, though. This time, instead of being unable to stop thinking about the past it is thoughts of ( Read more... )

The lake is so blue today. I can see it from my window, and it's so tempting to just run down there and maybe take a little swim but there's probably a chilly wind out there ( Read more... )

I realize that it's now less than a month until I go back home. I thought I would anticipate this day much more than I actually am. In some ways I am excited to return to Texas - to see my mother and cousins, to see my friends (mostly Aaron, Sara, and hopefully Brenda), but I'm also dreading the summer in many ways. Aside from being far from Scott ( Read more... )

It's funny how I actually gave Ivy the benefit of the doubt for so long. When Sara and Aaron and Karen and whoever insulted her and called her a stupid, shallow two-faced cold-hearted bitch or whatever, I always stood up for her. I tried to point out her positive qualities to them, tried to convince them that the good in her made up for all the bad ( Read more... )

"YES YOU CAN ( Read more... )

Hume was the usual. I never talk in that class anymore, unless I am called upon (which is quite rare, since there are usually enough people just waiting for a chance to speak that there is hardly ever any need to call on people.)  I like to listen to our T.A. Justin sort of argue with our professor, though. He's a cute Australian PhD candidate, and ( Read more... )

I sort of feel like a spectator in all of this. I play the part, I laugh at the appropriate time and nod when everyone else does. The only time I ever fail is when it comes to crying because goddamn it, I will not let myself cry, and if somehow I do, it sure as hell isn't going to be in public. So I come home and hate myself for all the things I ( Read more... )

When I said that I loved you, I meant I'd love you forever.

RIP Sapphire Iris Tarin
5/28/2007