I thought I had finally figured it out. I thought that I had finally come up with exactly the right balance and it seemed I had! For four days I had no problems, then, suddenly, today (it was supposed to be done yesterday) I was writing and "BAM" pins and needles start stabbing my lower abdomen. owwwww. Now I'm back on my couch, downing pain- ( Read more... )

Here I am again. This time is just a bit after 7:30 a.m. and I'm tired. I can't sleep though because if I go to sleep now, I won't be able to get up again until like four or so in the afternoon and we have to check out at eleven so we can begin the long journey home. I can't wait! Eight hours with nothing to do BUT sleep. What could be better for ( Read more... )

Here I am. It's nearly three in the morning and I'm sitting in a somewhat uncomfortable, red easy chair, a down pillow supporting my back and an overly large one protecting my legs from the heat of my brother's computer. I can't sleep, not because I am not tired but because I am sharing a hotel room with my parents and my brother. My parents--my ( Read more... )

Ever since last fall I have wanted to go to college. First I was going to start this spring/winter, but when I went to England I thought that I had missed the day, plus, in the end, I wasn't ready. Now I know that I will be ready to go in the fall, however, I have to make a choice. I want to start college because I want to meet people, I want to ( Read more... )

Wow. So for the first time the fact that I have never had a boyfriend hit me in a completely different way. Before it was just for my sake. I don't have a boyfriend so I have never made-out with someone I loved, or went out on a date that just involved going for a long walk. It has prevented me from feeling the things that I need to feel, but these ( Read more... )

Second post today! Yep, that's how fuckin bored I am right now. I have a faulty internet connection too, so I can't talk to people on AIM, though there really isn't anyone to talk to. Plus, I have a tv that only goes up to channel 13 and everything is on news right now. I'm home alone, have nothing to do, well, I could read Shakespeare or something ( Read more... )

I thought I had my period problems figured out. That I could now prevent myself from getting really horrible cramps. No, I don't THINK I know I had it figured out. I went like six months without becoming helpless during the four days that I have my flow and now that all changed. Today I got my period and it was fine. Then I went and played soccer ( Read more... )

I thought I had this amazing opportunity to be happy, to finally have a boyfriend, and it just went down the drain because he's not interested. I'm not heart-broken because I never had feelings for him, I just liked the idea of getting to know him better while being bf/gf, so I guess that's good. However, I'm not home-free either. I'm sad and ( Read more... )

There's this guy in my life who is convinced that I'm his only friend, and I can understand why. He's kinda oblivious to everything besides himself. Most of the time I'm talking to him I kinda wish I had never responded to his message on the philosophy board because then he wouldn't have any way of contacting me. Now, not only can he contact me ( Read more... )