Grrrrrr
Ever since last fall I have wanted to go to college. First I was going to start this spring/winter, but when I went to England I thought that I had missed the day, plus, in the end, I wasn't ready. Now I know that I will be ready to go in the fall, however, I have to make a choice. I want to start college because I want to meet people, I want to meet guys, more specifically, but at the same time I want to go to NBTSC. Camp takes place August 21 to the 27, both colleges I have looked into start during the time I would be gone at camp. I already have decided that I'm going to go to camp, but that means I have to wait even longer before I can go to college and start dating! It's so frustrating! I'm eighteen, I'm turning nineteen in less than two months, and I have NEVER had a boyfriend! It's driving me crazy . . . and I feel a lot like Phoebe from Charmed right now. I'm a fool, I suppose. I want a family, but I shouldn't be in such a hurry to give up the freedom I have. My godfather is getting married and starting a family just now. He's 47. I'm eighteen. *sigh* I have time, I hate admitting it, but I have time. I still want a boyfriend, though. What's the point of being young and unmarried if I have no one to help take advantage of it? When it all comes down to it, I'm just frustrated, and I don't know how to fix it.