i'm always the girl that turns out to be the best choice they've made when they leave me.
for once i'd like to be the girl that makes them realize what a mistake they've made when they left.
and have someone..... come back.

for once.

i'm tired of being left.
i want to be missed.
even just half as much as i miss.


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in september, if you told me that it was the beginning of the best semester of my life ( Read more... )

why did you go away ( Read more... )

i have so much inside me right now ( Read more... )

he cares. he kissed another girl. more than kissed her ( Read more... )

[the duel]May 17, 2004 ( Read more... )

my dreams last night were too wonderful. they were unfair.
funny how the ones you'd think i'd dream of.
are the ones that never infiltrate my sleep.
and the ones i do dream of.
are ones i know i shouldn't.
but even in sleep. just like in waking.
i remain kissless.
only hands held, lingering embraces
only promises, potentials.i wake knowing ( Read more... )

it's more than wanting, it's needing.
it's the driving life force.they walk by ( Read more... )

it's over ( Read more... )

maybe it's wrong to think about these things more and more each day ( Read more... )