So here we are again; a while away, and a few months to get back here again. I am happy to report that things are going very well. I am still working 5 days a week and still holding it together at home. It's a fine science so I'm being managed with lots of meds still. Am really tired of the weight gain side effect that comes with the medication ( Read more... )

So yesterday was the last day of group for me. It's a tremendous feeling of achievement to be done with the course and it was also incredible to read about how many lives I have touched during my time there as they are written on my grad certificate. It is a really special memento for me to keep and something I can refer to when I'm not feeling ( Read more... )

First of all, thanks to everyone who shared a kitty story the other day--they're all so preciousssss. XD Elliot behaved last night, thank dog, and we got some sleep ( Read more... )

Been keeping to myself again. It's like a big red flag when I stop wanting to interact with other humans (cats are still acceptable most days), suddenly lose my creative fire to paint or create and lastly, but definitely not least is the fact that I also lose the desire to take my pills. Mind you, I know in my rational mind that the pills do work ( Read more... )

I told my on-site therapist that I was going to let the situation with the psychiatrist go and if it came up again I would bring it up with him. She supported this decision (that's her job, after all) and then almost immediately asked me if I wanted to take the bipolar group offered at south street. This gave me some pause, immediately thinking-- ( Read more... )

[I wrote this journal over the span of a few days so apologies for its clunkiness ( Read more... )

Saw the vampires today--the new psychiatrist wanted to see my bloodwork which I usually do every three months but this time it came a little early. Just hoping I won't have to do the full workup again in July! I also found a little asian market right by the blood lab which I can't believe I didn't notice earlier as I've been going there for two ( Read more... )

So it's been awhile. And all's good here. Yesterday was a busy day for me with therapy in the morning and the day treatment intake interview in the afternoon. Both were valuable, but the real news here is that the day treatment program had some openings and I will be able to start next monday as opposed to mid-July as they said initially. I was ( Read more... )

Grumpus today. Irritable, impatient, annoyed and just a joy to be around, I'm sure. I hate days like today because try as I might I can't snap out of it. I even got pissed off when I was painting--that's how bizarre these emotions are. I had a ton of anxiety this morning before it morphed into this, the inevitable rebound from a too-good day.Ugh

Well, I made it. I made it through May mostly unscathed. A small week-long depressive episode is the only real negative thing to come out of it, apart from the anxiety that seemed to last for weeks leading up to the episode. I do probably owe that to dropping my Seroquel 50mg quite suddenly in the hopes of decreasing my dose (doctor-supervised, of ( Read more... )