yea i know. so here's probably what you're all thinking: "no one cares, stfu, estee, gtfo. you haven't been here for realzies for a year. you fell way behind on some amazing fanfics. your RPs died and you fell out of touch with basically your whole rp family. you've stopped writing creatively. you keep saying you'll do things but don't, like ( Read more... )

GETTING THROUGH SENIOR YEAR AND INTO MY TOP CHOICE COLLEGE! gahh i'm so worried...which makes me react in the worst way and just sorta blow everything off...which i really do need to stop doing. so i'm trying to get my apps done for my top two by the end of this week. oh and my portfolios...did you know that every freaking school has different ( Read more... )

i hate my life and myself. wahoo.

last night was the little shindig at phil's and it was fun....until i got really pissed and managed to ruin it. i don't really know why i flipped out, it was really minor things that set me over the edge (like people acting like 10-year-olds and a kid i EXTREMELY dislike having music ADD and not putting on actual ( Read more... )

so i just made a new sn. and i was trying to link it to my old one and upload my new buddy list.

so it linked, i signed off then on, then wouldn't upload my old buddy list to my new sn. so i unlinked and signed off again and signed on again.

it still wouldn't upload. so i tried again and again and again, linking, uploading, signing off and on, again ( Read more... )

F ( Read more... )

i feel awful...my stomach is all flippy and in knots, i'm dizzy, and i'm so sleep deprived that it doesn't even count as tired anymore ( Read more... )

do i even ahve a reason to be so upset ( Read more... )

how the fuck did i manage to get sunburned on ONE arm and ONE SIDE of my chest/under my neck ( Read more... )

today - just now - i went to read my new messages in my lj inbox. i went to click the little box next to a message to delete it and proceeded to immediately after  click DELETE. only as it was deleting did i realize that i had clicked the box at the top to delete that whole page of messages...and now i don't know what i have to go check, and what i ( Read more... )