I'm just baffled. I don't know what to think. I didn't think.....shit I don't know. I hate it when feelings in my gut are right. Damn them. I wish I had someone to hold on to right now. I didn't think this would hurt as much as it does.

But I think things will turn out okay. I'll just be sad and lonely for awhile.

All of my roommates haven't been back for even a full day yet, and I already feel like I don't fit in with them. Having microcozm around yesterday was awesome, but now that the guys are back I feel like all the same patterns from last quarter are starting in. I like living with only one other person, maybe two. Things are simpler. Stuff gets taken care ( Read more... )

I don't feel like I fit in with the roommates. They all get along better with each other than with me. I get along fine with them each on an individual basis, but if there are 3 or more of us in a room together, they all pay attention to each other. I don't think they mean any harm or anything. But they have all known each other for longer than ( Read more... )

I just want out of my self created hell hole. I don't know what to do. I just want to go back to being happy and notneeding to be around people all of the time. I really can't handle anything right now. Not even sitting here in my room. And no one wants to be around the girl who is unhappy. So yay to my troubled self for needing the one ( Read more... )

I'm really getting sick of spending every evening by myself at home. It just affirms what I usually try to deny: that I'm a loner. I mean, it's Friday night for crying out loud. I really just want to spend time with my friends and have fun. It just seems like I am my only friend who is always around. I'm coming to realize that I make lousy ( Read more... )

Of all the things that have happened to me, there have been some that I am glad have faded from memory and others I wish hadn't. I was looking through my pictures this morning and I came across some pics of Eric. I used to know his face so well. I still do. But he looked utterly foreign to me in those pictures. It makes me sad. Because it ( Read more... )