For some reason after my post earlier I started reading through my old entries from the beginning, and I came across this entry.

Thank you Eric for making me smile again 13 years later. I will never regret loving you.

It's funny how one phone call from your major ex can first turn your world upside-down and then help you to feel more at peace and driven than ever ( Read more... )

Eric just called me out of the blue. And now all of the emotion in that just came flooding back. I really miss him. I could even hear him on the phone starting to choke up. I really wish I could hug him right now. Wow, I didn't think 15 minutes would mean so much after all this time.

When I clean my room I always seem to end up reading old journals. In this case, freshman and sophomore years. After reading all about Cian, Rich, Sean, and Eric, I'm feeling mildly odd. Maybe because I have a date-thing tonight (Jason agreed to move it to today) or maybe because it's Eric. I don't think I should date anyone right now. Looking back ( Read more... )

This weekend has been a blur. (Except for that nasty hour this morning at 3 AM where my neighbors kept turning their music back on after myself and other J-building occupants had turned it off as the door was wide open and no one home.) I have seen so many people that I rarely see and all of it together makes me realize just how much I want my life ( Read more... )

So for some reason Adium is being stupid and won't sign onto AIM when I'm at home. It signs on just fine at school. And now Meebo won't sign on either. Probably best considering I need to spend tonight reworking my Flash file from Monday. I'm just tired of looking at my ex. It makes me sad that I lost touch with that part of my life. I'm ready to ( Read more... )

All weekend I've been working on movie credits for my class. The movie is about going to the AeroDesign West Competition with Aerobrick three and half years ago. Looking at all of the pictures has been making me feel exceptionally weird. Partly because it has been more than three years and my life is so far away from that aspect of my life. However ( Read more... )

I hate cleaning my room because I tend to come across stuff that will make me incredibly emotional. Like finding the clipping of this obituary of one of my friends from 4th grade through high school. I'm pissed off about it because my grandmother did not get it to me until November and the services were in September and I would have liked to go. ( Read more... )

The thing I miss most about Eric is how goofy he is. I just came across a picture of Eric and it got me thinking about him which is something I haven't done in a long time. I think it is safe to say that I am now completely over Eric. I don't talk about him very often anymore. And half of the time when I refer to someone I dated I'm talking about ( Read more... )

Perhaps September 25th is not the day I should fear. Rather it should be New Years. Once again I have been talking to a really awesome guy over AIM for hours at a time while being here in Oakley. Also today, I was chatting with him while trying to get pictures on the computer. It's reminding me a bit of when I started going out with Eric, ( Read more... )