Moving Onward
This weekend has been a blur. (Except for that nasty hour this morning at 3 AM where my neighbors kept turning their music back on after myself and other J-building occupants had turned it off as the door was wide open and no one home.) I have seen so many people that I rarely see and all of it together makes me realize just how much I want my life back. Okay, so I'm sure it may sound to silly to hear that I need my life back, but Unitrans took over and all else didn't matter. Spring quarter three years ago had to be the best time of my life ever. I met most of my friends that quarter. I was newly readmitted to UC Davis. I had blown romance to the wind and was finally starting to get over Eric and mending my friendship with him as well. I started getting into climbing and was going for walks on the greenbelt near my house with Arianna. New adventures awaited me every day and I managed to not kill myself while attempting to take 18 units between Sac City and UCD.
The current apparition of my life pales in comparison. Even summer 2005 (which was also an absolute blast as I met new friends and built up other friendships) far surpassed the corpse of my life. I never have time to do things which I enjoy so much and keep me sane such as painting and reading. Even climbing has taken a back burner to everything.
Just seeing everyone this weekend is making me look forward to being free even more. Plus ordering my cap and gown and my announcements ads to the sense of finality. So this post is a hybrid of whining and excitement. I know I am only asking to rush towards the monotony of the 8-5 daily grind, but that would be far more welcome than the 6 AM-9PM (5AM-8PM) schedule that I am trapped in right now. Anyways, I should go shower quickly before my slides finish printing and I am stuck studying them for the rest of the night.
The current apparition of my life pales in comparison. Even summer 2005 (which was also an absolute blast as I met new friends and built up other friendships) far surpassed the corpse of my life. I never have time to do things which I enjoy so much and keep me sane such as painting and reading. Even climbing has taken a back burner to everything.
Just seeing everyone this weekend is making me look forward to being free even more. Plus ordering my cap and gown and my announcements ads to the sense of finality. So this post is a hybrid of whining and excitement. I know I am only asking to rush towards the monotony of the 8-5 daily grind, but that would be far more welcome than the 6 AM-9PM (5AM-8PM) schedule that I am trapped in right now. Anyways, I should go shower quickly before my slides finish printing and I am stuck studying them for the rest of the night.