So Christmas is on its way, and I haven't really thought about whether or not I'm going to write any holiday themed stories this year. Honestly I haven't thought about anything creative lately. I'm so bogged down in study (which is fun and important but mentally tiring) and work (which is much less fun, not really important, and emotionally tiring ( Read more... )

I really wasn't sure if I was going to post this. I try to use LJ as a place to vent my feelings (which is why it's mostly complaining) but this is a big one. I have to start working through my feelings, and since I don't ever learn and am still telling friends and family I'm alright, maybe this is the right place to deal. My brother committed ( Read more... )

So I've got two modules running together this academic year, and I've had two assignments due within a week of each other. I've done one and I need an extension on the other because I haven't done the experiments that are needed. I have overtime all over xmas at work and I'm stressing like hell so naturally instead of organising my shit this ( Read more... )

I got my results back for this week, and I passed! I'm officially moving forward as of October. I will have that BSc after my name before the age of 30; yay!

I'm still having quite bad panic attacks, and I'm doing stupid overtime for the next few weeks, but I'll try to keep looking on the bright side. 

Soooo.... I went on something that could be described as a date today! It was a girl I've chatted to online and, while it didn't work out (there was no 'spark) I'm happy to know that I can go out on my own to meet a relative stranger for possible romantic entanglements without completely freaking out! Not one single panic attack on the way there or ( Read more... )

So I got through my exam alive. I had more panic attacks in the last month than I have in the last year, and I have come to what feels like the same conclusion I've come to about a dozen times by now - nobody cares about my wellbeing more than they care about their own interests ( Read more... )

Between coming back from holiday and going back to work, for some insane reason - ok so I know the reason and his name is Howard Charles - I decided to go to a Comic Con 4 hours away from me on less than a week's notice ( Read more... )

I recently went on holiday for a few days, and it seems to have allowed my brain to come to terms with a few things, which I wasn't expecting. I thought 'just relax and enjoy the holiday' but apparently life revelations were on the cards instead. It's so strange to think that even now - over a year after I left the job that fucked up my life, I ( Read more... )

So this is just a quick stream-of-consciousness post type dealie. I'm trying not to let this place become 'the wonderful world of my depression' posts, but lately I'm having more 'meh' days than anything else, which I suppose is better than having a lot of bad days. This feeling of just existing is a bit of a pain in the arse. I'm laughing easily ( Read more... )

I feel like a bad fan ( Read more... )