Hmmmmmmmmmm.....
So Christmas is on its way, and I haven't really thought about whether or not I'm going to write any holiday themed stories this year. Honestly I haven't thought about anything creative lately. I'm so bogged down in study (which is fun and important but mentally tiring) and work (which is much less fun, not really important, and emotionally tiring) and general feelings of depression, both from my own mental illness, and the apparent apocalypse that's going on between world politics and looming environmental disaster.
LJ is a bit of an odd place for me right now. On the one hand it's nice to have somewhere I can sort of shout into the void and not have to watch my words about how I feel (because nobody from my real life is here) but on the other hand it's a little disheartening to basically talk to myself all the time.
Working in retail doesn't really allow for a Christmas break, since we're only closed xmas day and new year's day. I wish I could find a nice job working part-time hours in an office until I get this degree finished. Next year is going to be a real trial, as I have to double up my course workload in order to finish on time. I don't know what I'm going to do.
I want to have the time and energy to engage in fandom again. I want the strength to block people who annoy me without feeling guilty that maybe they didn't mean it that way. I want the tenacity to interact more with my RL friends, despite work schedules and the miles that separate us. I just want to be better.
I hope anyone who is actually reading this has a wonderful Christmas period. May your chosen holiday festivities go according to plan, and may the New Year bring you everything you want, and more.
Brightest Blessings
x
LJ is a bit of an odd place for me right now. On the one hand it's nice to have somewhere I can sort of shout into the void and not have to watch my words about how I feel (because nobody from my real life is here) but on the other hand it's a little disheartening to basically talk to myself all the time.
Working in retail doesn't really allow for a Christmas break, since we're only closed xmas day and new year's day. I wish I could find a nice job working part-time hours in an office until I get this degree finished. Next year is going to be a real trial, as I have to double up my course workload in order to finish on time. I don't know what I'm going to do.
I want to have the time and energy to engage in fandom again. I want the strength to block people who annoy me without feeling guilty that maybe they didn't mean it that way. I want the tenacity to interact more with my RL friends, despite work schedules and the miles that separate us. I just want to be better.
I hope anyone who is actually reading this has a wonderful Christmas period. May your chosen holiday festivities go according to plan, and may the New Year bring you everything you want, and more.
Brightest Blessings
x