Well... it's the week after Trials, and I told myself that I would do work after the Trials. I said this before the Trials. And now that it is the week after the Trials... I have done very little work ( Read more... )

So. Today was the dreaded 2u Continuers HSC Speaking thingamabob. I think after what happened, I'm back down to a 15/20 =( I got 17/20 for the in class one >< The examiner asked me some really specific, tangential questions that completely deviated from the core outcomes, so I was quite out of it for the first half of the time. RAWR. But I did ( Read more... )

did i mention that i'm still facing motivational issues?

I'm having motivational issues. I know that I'm supposed to study so that I can get a high UAI so I can get into the course that I want, but that's been around in my psyche since I was a little kid and now it's basically lost all meaning. Like I have no fricking idea what I'm going to do with the rest of my life, except to enjoy the ride. But I can ( Read more... )

Can you leave me here alone now ( Read more... )

i can' do my biology assessment for several reasons
1) my keyboard is annoying to type on
2) i procrastinated too much
3) i've run out of time

i feel very silly... like someone has told me its wrong to be silly and nonsensical and little obedient me feels guilty. and so the cycle begins.

that's the word i'm going to use to describe how i behaved today. i blamed my past actions on someone else. and i'm ashamed to have done it. also i was reminded of a bad thing i did last year today, which i had sort of let blow over, but now that i remember i feel mortified... again

i've removed offensive entries from a place where everyone can read them to a place where only i can read them. sorry for being so hurtful and spiteful.

you've taken to the idea of being a writer, at least as a hobby. this explains why you've decided to write this entry in second person, as practice, since it is your favourite voice when writing. it may be very confusing at first, but it also makes you sound less self-centred since you're not technically using the words "I" and "me" etc ( Read more... )

well... two posts in a row. that's not good.

i should probably get some sleep.

but i can't.

and you know why?

my pillow is wet

it's cold

oh yeah and my mind is occupied by the thoughts of someone else's possible suicide attempt in five days.

when did it come down to only having one person who can save someone...

i don't even have