i think i fucking hate her. does that count for how i feel? im in her bed....like i have been for the past hour and a half, totally unannounced.....what is it about showing up unannounced that truly shows you how much you can trust someone. i don't know what she's doing, but i have a gut feeling that it is something that is going to wrench us ( Read more... )

men are fucking assholes.

i'm totally finished with them all.

so much for playing the straight girl....

i think i really hurt d last night by making out with some random chic at a party. i could say it was all of the alcohol or maybe the pot....but who the fuck would i be fooling?

she was hot, and j was right----she had the softest lips ever.

but d really didn't seem to appreciate it at all.

trying on sexuality to find the right fit...

sara called tonight. god, i've missed her so much. i haven't been able to get her out of my head. i told her about him and that i had sex with him....and even that i called out her name. she laughed at that. i think that made her feel better about the fact that i did it. i mean, she knows we can't be together.....that i need to be here right ( Read more... )

so the answer to the million dollar question,

a half of case of beer and six shots of tequila

and he never noticed that i moaned her name.

i'm beginning to wonder why i always wanted you under a microscope....why i felt the need to examine (in detail) every little aspect of you, of me, and of us together.

and even more, i wonder why i never saw what was right in front of my eyes.

life goes on

someone keeps calling my cell late at night and leaving three second messages of absolutely nothing ( Read more... )

i sat up all night, insomnia once again claiming my life, and i thought of you. i thought of where we were at this time last year. remember? we were making plans for the baby....debating things like soccer camp vs. pirate camp, the amount of damage that can be inflicted on a child by too much competitivness, and drooling over things like tiny, ( Read more... )