Cancer of the Soul
I can't deny what's going on with me... I am depressed. I don't mean I have a bad mood or a bad month or whatever, I can't get out of bed. Seriously, I sleep for 12 hours, I get weepy for NO reason... I know the symptoms... One of my biggest fears... Depression has returned. I have NO idea why... Maybe the fucking Effexor still... I just know I am masking it with Ritalin, which helps a LOT, but when it wears off it's HELL... Paxil is not working anymore... I am TERRIFIED of trying any new meds after my hellish ordeal with Effexor but I need to get to the root of this and figure something out. This is bad. I can't go on masking it while my body is crying for help. I am asking for ANY advice... I don't know what to do. I don't want to go through the whole switching meds thing but I don't know what else to do... I am desperate for ANY advice here. I am willing to try anything. I can't deny what's going on with me. My body is a crying for help. The horrible inability to lift my head in the morning, my sex drive is gone, nightmares, low energy, crying spells... I will force exercise, anything to help lift the serotonin levels... Again, I am really desperate for any advice at this point, but I am afraid I will have to face switching meds again, which involves Paxil withdrawal, I don't know how I will react to anything new... Guys, ANY advice, PLEASE... I AM DESPERATE.
