Emotional/mental torture is often much more effective than merely inflicting physical pain. I wish I had coordinated properly with the Doctor; if I had known that he was close to getting the information from that woman, I would not have stepped in the way I did at that point. Ah well, the information was eventually extracted, and I'm told that ( Read more... )

Last night was wonderful. I truly hadn't realized how much I've missed working with him. I was in top form; I was able to completely handle the fluid chemistry and transfer, leaving him to work on his specialty of fleshcrafting--and I assisted there as well, with framework and stitching. This despite having gotten tipsy (for the first time in any ( Read more... )

It seems like I've been fighting as long as I can remember. I've spent so much energy, so much time, fighting something that I always wanted ( Read more... )

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((The writing, usually a bizarre jumble of words and letters from several languages, is in plain Orcish for this entry ( Read more... )

This is amazing. Everything is going right.My previous research into the polymorphing properties of the worgen curse turned out to be useless, but the books I acquired from the Keep before it "changed hands" are priceless. They've accellerated my work profoundly, to the point of catching the attention of Apothecary Meredith and other senior ( Read more... )

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I wanted to know. Now... I understand. How he can forgive... that I still don't understand, if it was me...

I will save him, all of him, if I have to tear a dragon apart with my bare hands to do it.

The thing that irritates me is that I let my own self-pity hurt him. Once I calmed down enough to rationally think about what happened, I realized where my point of weakness was. Now that I know what it was, I can stop it from happening again. The shouting... unnerved me, but what it meant for him... stupid dead echoes. And the blade... I was ( Read more... )