Jump Back Up July: No Obligations
Today, I'm trying to avoid telling myself that "I must" do this, or "I should" do this. I know I often have a habit of pushing myself to do things, or try to instigate something that in my head feels like pie in the sky.
I might also be doing it at the apparent urging of someone else, because I am too much of a people pleaser.
To give one example, I was hoping for the first week of August as a return to the office (I will fill in the risk assessment today). It appeared that my Line Manager was suggesting a week early.
First off, I can't really get my head round making such a drastic change as returning to an old routine, even part-time earlier than planned.
Secondly, my head tells me I should wait three weeks after getting my vaccine for it to be fully working.
We've settled on the second week of August, and believe me, often my mind was telling me that I shouldn't be procrastinating, it almost felt toxic.
There's also the tentative proposals to travel into London tomorrow, which I have decided I wouldn't do (again, too soon to think about, and all the uncertainty about whether they will do it is a little offputting).
I think other impulsive thoughts too; like if I just see that others have friends round, I immediately think, "I should be doing that" but then my head tells me that it's not all that practical, particularly with so many of my friends having kids, not to mention their past reactions, which are either "Not sure if I have the time" or just not responding.
Therefore, I should stop thinking too much about "maybes" and my own spontaneous thoughts, and put them out of my head - I should think with my head more, and not with my heart.
Anyway, wasn't that a great England game last night? First cup final in a long time; let's emulate the 1966 world cup winning side!
I have another hike after work; hopefully I'll learn a few things for the 5 ways to wellbeing's "Discover Thursday".
My success yesterday was completing the 50km Strava challenge. I've also logged almost 14 hours of activity for this month.
I might also be doing it at the apparent urging of someone else, because I am too much of a people pleaser.
To give one example, I was hoping for the first week of August as a return to the office (I will fill in the risk assessment today). It appeared that my Line Manager was suggesting a week early.
First off, I can't really get my head round making such a drastic change as returning to an old routine, even part-time earlier than planned.
Secondly, my head tells me I should wait three weeks after getting my vaccine for it to be fully working.
We've settled on the second week of August, and believe me, often my mind was telling me that I shouldn't be procrastinating, it almost felt toxic.
There's also the tentative proposals to travel into London tomorrow, which I have decided I wouldn't do (again, too soon to think about, and all the uncertainty about whether they will do it is a little offputting).
I think other impulsive thoughts too; like if I just see that others have friends round, I immediately think, "I should be doing that" but then my head tells me that it's not all that practical, particularly with so many of my friends having kids, not to mention their past reactions, which are either "Not sure if I have the time" or just not responding.
Therefore, I should stop thinking too much about "maybes" and my own spontaneous thoughts, and put them out of my head - I should think with my head more, and not with my heart.
Anyway, wasn't that a great England game last night? First cup final in a long time; let's emulate the 1966 world cup winning side!
I have another hike after work; hopefully I'll learn a few things for the 5 ways to wellbeing's "Discover Thursday".
My success yesterday was completing the 50km Strava challenge. I've also logged almost 14 hours of activity for this month.