Work Update
Omfg I just became a closer like a week ago and now this, wtf.
TL;DR I basically got two managers working on my promotion when I mentioned being promoted IN THE FUTURE, NOT FUCKING NOW and now I'm freaking out.
( If you wanna read my freakout )
TL;DR I basically got two managers working on my promotion when I mentioned being promoted IN THE FUTURE, NOT FUCKING NOW and now I'm freaking out.
( If you wanna read my freakout )
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But that's not how it happened, no, not at all.
never is. life ain't like that.
Now soon to be assistant manager or whatever.
good for him
I even said, "I have to work on myself and better myself first, but I do want to be a Crew Chief eventually" I'm not sure how they got "I need to be a Crew Chief right now." Literally what the fuck. What the fuck. What.
-shrug- remember that no one is really as put together as they seem. having reached the point of recognizing you aren't perfect is about as put together as you can expect a person to be if you want to be realistic in your expectations of finding a candidate.
and they've probably noticed you're a wee touch of a perfectionist and hard worker and know if you're on hte job you'll be improving yourself as best as can be.
..and maybe they also figure the incentive of 'no really, the time is *now*' will keep you focused on prioritizing this in your life. 'in the future' is such a vague thing, after all
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true, just wish I had a better poker face...fucking Starbucks guy? Not a whole lot older than me...got a decade or so but not a whole lot older...dude's sitting with me on break though, talking 'bout keeping myself in check, then tells me he's had 5 friends die on him since he started working at our store, but you can't tell because of how he acts at work. "When you're at work, you're at work". I don't got that kind of poker face, I"ve just got straight up...bitch face
maybe dumbass is more cunning than one likes to think and was testing you.
fucker's always testing people, keeps a mental shitlist of who he wants fired...but nah, after our conversations after what happened...he really had no fucking idea. I don't think he totally acknowledges it either. Just admits to being in a shitty mood
but I think you'll find a lot of the things that make you fly off the handle now, will smack into that awarenessyeah, starting to see this. don't think coworkers are watching so much ( ... )
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you say barney's calm. really? we haven't seen him fly off the handle? beat the shit out of not on ly things but actual people? yell and swear, even at friends? I'm sure we did see it. and if not.. then I sure as fuck 'saw' him doing that in my mind, which I reckon is from reading his eyes in those moments before he locked it down.
and I'm positive Lee would be dead quiet if HE was the figure in charge being looked up to. leaders still feel anger and helpless and like crying and swearing and kicking. it's just slaming an actor's mask on it.
even though you know you are all going to die, YOU have to keep everyone CALM so that a few have a chance to survive. or at least the people you are responsible for don't have panic as their last memory. there is no one else. honour forces you do whatever the fuck is necessary.
I can psychoanalyze the shit out of myself and tell you how much I suck at dealing with things in a healthy way and I can tell you why. But I can't fucking tell you how to fix it.Is that okay? Or ( ... )
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movie-wise? not that I recall...but fic-wise, definitely a lot of shaky thoughts, unsteady steps and a crumbling facade...but still, takes a lot for him to get there.
no one expects yu to be vulcan *without* emotions (and when they're honest, even THEY admit to HAVING emotions. they just suppress them).
point, they just expect the suppression. Which I suppose I is...reasonable. A friend asked me to help keep him on the straight and narrow, he wants to move up as well, watching him it's easy to point out the shit you should not be showing...moodiness for example
because you want things to be *better* for them. you are on their side even when angry.I'm hoping they're getting that now. I can generally get most of them to listen to me even without the promotion yet. And the one...manager tried to slam him with the 'didn't do your work' shit, make him stay past the time he's supposed to be off. I manager to shut that down. They definitely don't make it easy to advocate for them though when they ( ... )
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some decades mean some major life changes. and the decades before that affect it too. hell, he might have grown up in a repressive household where he got beat for being a normal emotional child.. change you in a hurry. or had a ton of tragedy, dull your emotions.
I don't got that kind of poker face,
spent a lot of time practicing? trying? I mean *really*? deliberately and with thought tried to wipe your face to a mask? and maintain it? not just a vague 'ugh, I should' thought in hte morning. every single time you stop and don't have something to focus on, check your face. try to remind yourself all through the day, every 15 minutes. how's my face?
and don't for fuck's sake give yurself shit when you 'fail'. just stop and wipe it and continue.
you don't learn kickboxing by going to a few classes. don't lose weight or get in shape going to gym for january. it takes months and years to change yourself.
he really had no fucking idea. I don't think he totally ( ... )
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-whistles innocently- who me? why would I read this?... oh. wait..
whereas I dress more like ... uh. can't fill that in... Fraser and Luke danes are both more lumberjack than I mostly go, mostly. barney's and lee are both too much into tshirts that I only do for workout. most of the rest of my fandoms wear uniforms or are different times/fantasy, lol, or wear suits (house, hastings, rem steele) which I don't wear a jacket. Votes?
Only difference between Smith and I-blinks- lol, you guys get to read my inner self. my outer self... ok. yes, I've gotten a *little* better at.. expressing emotions instead..... of being silent but......... um. crap. never mind. yes. entertain office with antics and swear snarl antics in back where it's guys and if tey expect me to 'behave' they can go fuck themselves for the sexism since THEY don't. -sticks out tongue ( ... )
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