Work Update

[gadhar13]

Omfg I just became a closer like a week ago and now this, wtf.

TL;DR I basically got two managers working on my promotion when I mentioned being promoted IN THE FUTURE, NOT FUCKING NOW and now I'm freaking out.

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Re: part deux

[wanderingsmith]

Not a whole lot older than me...got a decade or so
some decades mean some major life changes. and the decades before that affect it too. hell, he might have grown up in a repressive household where he got beat for being a normal emotional child.. change you in a hurry. or had a ton of tragedy, dull your emotions.

I don't got that kind of poker face,
spent a lot of time practicing? trying? I mean *really*? deliberately and with thought tried to wipe your face to a mask? and maintain it? not just a vague 'ugh, I should' thought in hte morning. every single time you stop and don't have something to focus on, check your face. try to remind yourself all through the day, every 15 minutes. how's my face?

and don't for fuck's sake give yurself shit when you 'fail'. just stop and wipe it and continue.
you don't learn kickboxing by going to a few classes. don't lose weight or get in shape going to gym for january. it takes months and years to change yourself.

he really had no fucking idea. I don't think he totally acknowledges it either. Just admits to being in a shitty mood
-taps yuor forehead-
so.. got to GM.. and still hasn't got that poker face entirely pat.. go figure.. maybe you can work on this togehter.../sarcasm

yeah, starting to see this. don't think coworkers are watching so much but I know the fucking managers are
awareness. so much fun...

pretty sure I fucked up the other day (not an anger thing just a procedure thing) but also pretty sure I made up for it later.
..careful giving too much weight to their watching. pay more attention to yourself than them. you can never be 'what htey want'. not really. not least because even THEY don't know what they want, being humans. you gotta be what *you* want to be.

not that I recall
...? seems to me he got a *little* pissed at a *few* people. maybe not screaming.. mostly, but pissed.
but yeah, takes a lot.

expect the suppression. Which I suppose I is...reasonable.
eh. aim for the stars. you might not get htere, but at least you won't shoot your foot off.

it's easy to point out the shit you should not be showing...moodiness for example
well, yeah. cause you're not *feeling* the moodiness. lol, first thing moodiness does is disable your ability to notice you're changing (long before you change enough to be noticed). so by the time someone sees and mentions, or it's so bad *you* notice yourself.. you're stuck deep in.
but that's where if you are actively practicing wiping your face.. it either won't matter cause you wipe everything.. or you'll notice early that you're having to put in more effort. ..not that that makes mood go away. you still can only put in hte effort to not show, by whatever means. if you have a *trusted* friend, you could set up a buddy-check. if they see you starting to show, have a signal for you.

I'm hoping they're getting that now.
eh. tell that to good politicians and all the hate they get...

They definitely don't make it easy to advocate for them though when they want to run around like fucking morons. Pack of five year olds, I swear.
yup. good luck.. better you than me.