It's been over a month since I've updated, and what a month it's been. I went to China, which was amazing, but I kept two journals while I was there so I won't post anything from that here. Aside from that, I've hung out with tons of absolutely incredible people that keep my heart beating. I want to start updating about my day to day activities ( Read more... )

I hate dreams like this. They're awful. They're awful while I'm having them, and then I wake up and I'm relieved that it wasn't real, but then throughout that day I can't get it out of my head and it scares the shit out of me ( Read more... )

I want ( Read more... )

it's a beautiful saturday and I'm afraid I've nothing to do ( Read more... )

can I keep living in denial?
I get this awful feeling that I'm lying to everyone
just because I don't know what I want
first I need to stop lying to myself

I haven't really felt myself lately. I don't know why. Life's been good...life's been great. I just can't seem to be excited about it, though. I don't think I'm very comfortable with where I am. I'm probably more stressed than I should be, even though I'm not that stressed. At least, I don't think I am. But I'm completely unsure about so many ( Read more... )

I'm really confused right now ( Read more... )

what are the perfect words to say? I'm at a total loss. I try to be casual--it works, sometimes--I try to help. I want to help. I want to be the one to make you change your mind or love yourself in the end or realize everything's gonna be alright and I care about you so much ( Read more... )