Aaand..
..also, I called my social worker two days ago and she told me that I should have my first disability check and my drug card NEXT WEEK. Like.. fucking wow. I'm so just.. I mean, it's surreal, I can't believe this is finally happening, everything is coming through and now I'll hopefully have the leverage to get the help I need. I know it's going to take a lot of hard work, but now that I'll have some money, I won't have to worry about the finances anymore and I can save up for school (two things that were a VERY large component of the anxiety). I was also thinking about taking some bi-weekly art classes, and I think it'll be really helpful to do so. Not only will it be a good low-pressure way to start having a regular schedule again, but it'll also get me used to being back in a classroom setting, and since I already do/like art, it (hopefully) won't be so difficult. So, I think this is a really good idea, and I'm so fucking grateful every single day that this disability came through for me. Not just grateful, but just.. VALIDATED. Validated because my mom and every ignorant retard and fake ex-friend can spew some bullshit about how I'm faking, exaggerating or just whining, but at the end of the day this is something I can show and be like, HA. There you go. A professional recognizes what kind of effect this has on me, and I'm pretty sure someone who gets paid to assess mental illnesses knows a little bit more than you do.
Anyway. So that should be coming next week and I'm SO excited to be able to help my dad out with our expenses. I'm also forcing him to take $100 out of the $300 I give him and put it into a RRSP so that he'll have a bit of money to retire (because WSIB doesn't give money after 65, and my dad just turned 58.. though hopefully by then I'll be a doctor and able to take care of him). So, yeah. It's been a really good week between that and Mariah (the zoo particularly was so much fun, and I'm really glad my dad came with us, because I think he would have regretted not coming). (..Also, it was just nice to get him out of the house and spend time with him in a different setting.) But yeah. This past week has been really excellent and we're already talking about me maybe going down there next summer, or us saving up to go to either Iceland (lol I know) or Disneyland in Florida.
So many good memories.
Also, by all means, please continue your pathetically desperate attempt to make us react. We're friends. We're together. We're happy. I don't understand why this bothers you so much.
Anyway. So that should be coming next week and I'm SO excited to be able to help my dad out with our expenses. I'm also forcing him to take $100 out of the $300 I give him and put it into a RRSP so that he'll have a bit of money to retire (because WSIB doesn't give money after 65, and my dad just turned 58.. though hopefully by then I'll be a doctor and able to take care of him). So, yeah. It's been a really good week between that and Mariah (the zoo particularly was so much fun, and I'm really glad my dad came with us, because I think he would have regretted not coming). (..Also, it was just nice to get him out of the house and spend time with him in a different setting.) But yeah. This past week has been really excellent and we're already talking about me maybe going down there next summer, or us saving up to go to either Iceland (lol I know) or Disneyland in Florida.
So many good memories.
Also, by all means, please continue your pathetically desperate attempt to make us react. We're friends. We're together. We're happy. I don't understand why this bothers you so much.