Apple sauce.. part 2..
So were texting one night. And im with friends, and friends are like who are you texting I hope its model girl(again I have other girls stories I could tell but lets just keep this to Apple for now)because you know she is down, she likes you, you guys are getting along well etc. Or one of all these other girls that wants to do stuff. Im like no its the apple girl. And they are basically like FUCK that girl she sucks, she isnt even that good looking, and she treats you like shit. She invites you to places and then doenst even talk to you. Zack was just there with you and he saw it first hand. Who cares about her. So im like well whatever I think she is nice(which well.. I do.. at least at that point I did if it was just me and her)and I think she is good looking. So I try to defend her and they just keep going on about how many girls I get all the time and theres no point in someone like her. So they eventaully ask well what are you guys talking about. At this point Apple girl had just sent me a text about if I wanted to go see spider man alone with her. We were joking that she had to go see Batman again for the 5th time or something with her stepdad. And then that lead into me and her going to see Spider man alone together. So while everyone else is talking shit to me about her, I say out loud something like stop trying to make me nervous, and I accidently TYPE nervous and send it to her...
FUCK.....
I have no idea wtf to do... My friends can see the look of horror on my face. They are like what happened.. Im like you idoits kept saying shit and I accidently typed nervous to her now. And of course they didnt care, they were just like she is dum and sucks who cares lol.. But of course I did...
I thought about just saying oops wrong message. But I thought if I wrote that maybe she would think im desperate so I didnt say anything.. I could tell she was irked because she was just something just like I have to go take a shower and play with my kindle later...
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So... its not.. immediately terrible... I see her and she tells me something like with summer getting closer to ending that she isnt going to have 2 jobs so she will be more free to hang out or something.. I sorta take that as my in that I can ask her to hang out soon.. but I dont do it there...She invites me to some movie with some friends again.. Im actually pretty sick this day as well and get done wtih hospital stuff, but decide fuck it ill go.. still trynig to be friends with her and her friends.. I plan on if I can get her alone trying to tell her a joke or something. Like hey if you ever need someone to see Batman with for a 6th time with.. Kinda thing.. To ease that text from before .. But I never get the chance and we dont talk...
She messages me that she and her BF are having a bonfire or something.. Im feeling more werided out by her.. I just went to the movies with her again and I dunno.. I just get this weird vibe.. Her personality is just so fucking friendly randomly and then completely diff.. She keeps texting me if I will go to this bonfire over and over.. I keep telling her maybe, but she teases me saying she knows that I will go. And I start to hint at my displeasure of how are friendship is.. I tell her I feel awkward going and hanging out with all these people I dont know. Which is the truth.... Ive known her for a few months now, and she is friendly with me when its just me and her.. but when I see her in groups.. we dont talk.. And its weird... And I dont know any of her friends really anymore then I know her... Its kinda like why keep hanging out wtih people that I never get to hang out with alone... Its kinda weird.. I hint this a little bit.. but she is like no its ok are friends are weird you arent werid.. and just keeps telling me I know your going to come.. well of course you know im going to at least try to come you know im trying to get to know you, im just getting weirded out... sigh....
So whatever the bonfire happens. She messages me probably like 5 times come over, when are you coming over? Come in the pool!@?.. come over? Come over...
I was doing other stuff though.. so shrug? Anyway she sounds pretty entusastic about me coming over again.. And im sure as usual I will get there and we wont talk...
I plan on if I can get her alone to tell her that batman line.. but the first thing she says to me, is why didnt shawn come... Its like dammit.. And her body language is negative towards me and everything not even looking at me. And its like why is it like this dude... Are you like hiding that you are talking to me? This shit is so weird... Its already gotten negative....
Anyway also at some point its me her and this other dude sitting down looking at her phone showing videos.. for some reason im watching and then she is like o clayton doesnt care ill show him later and schoochs closer to him..... I was like I was watching.. And she was just like ill show you later....
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She gives me a lot of wierd vibes again.. Which is bizarre because once again she is super friendly with everyone else.. But me.. theres a coldness to her for no reason.....
At one point said dude and other dude(im not going to name, names here as it isnt important and just incase someone does see this well..)actually even make a joke about jacking off about her. In clear range for her to here. She doesnt say anything... And im just thinking man.. and im being treated like im the one being weird.. what is going on...
Some other stupid shit happens but again im treated like im not wanted there again.. and I decide next time im going to have to say something.. Its been going on for to long...
It doesnt help that ive had shawn and jenn in my ear as well about everything thats been going on as well... Saying things....
So the next time I see her at Kroger I try talking to her and im like hey is there something you want to tell me? And she is like no... I kinda laugh it off.. and I tell her while laughing like dude you make me want to shake you.. what is going on? Shes like oh no dont say that what did I do? Im like I know its weird that I told you I like you that your good looking etc before I even knew you. And I wish I could take that back and just be your friend beforehand but I obviously cant do that. So are you actually cool with us being friends. Because I feel like we arent...
She is like no no nothing is wrong its ok.... Im like... ok dude... And I walk away....
She later messages me somethiing like hey are you cool just being friends with me, because I want to be closer with you, but I dont want you to only like me like that. And im like dude yes I just told you I told you were beautiful for me, I found out you had a bf so I just said it for myself. I was fine being friends if you were actually fine being friends too. I dont want to be fake friends.. And she is like ok because I want to be good friends wtih you.. I also asked for her email because I found out she liked art as she was going to go to school I guess this coming semester for art, so I was like oh ok I scribble sometimes to and even was going to go to college for it at one point. So she gives me her email to send her some stuff... And thats that...
Im weirded out. .because honestly its like.... Im being freindzoned... while... not even being friends period with someone... I try to let it be....
A bit after that I get a message from Chris(havnt mentioned him yet but anyway)who is again not getting into the details basically tells me some story that sounds like Apple girl is using me. Now its not just Shawn or Jenn, one of her friends from totally her side is telling me something is going on....
Also since this conversation now things are deffintly weird.. when I see her it is not the same now she is acting cold to me when its just me and her. I ask her if she wants to hang out sometime because she told me she is now more free to do stuff. She is like oh ok how about tonight.. So she invites me over to hang out with her and some friends... Im not really to excited about it, and wasnt planning on doing it that night.. But im like.. whatever... I get there and basically I hang out for a hour and then they have to leave.. Its pretty pointless even coming.. they say sorry and the BF says hey why dont me and you hang out this week and play some games, as he heard I play games.. Of course this dude probably has no idea that when I say I use to play games I mean.. I use to make money playing games kinda good lol.. I agree....
Of course I get a lot of shit for going to hang out with him. As shawn doenst like him. And its like why would you ever hang out with him. But at this point im tired of hanging out in this group shit with out actually knowing anyone. And I still dont think anything badly of the dude, so ill go play games for a bit for something to do I guess... I see Apple girl at Kroger before I come, and she gives me some excuse that when I come over she will be a sleep.. Im like um ok.. And she just is really cold to me, and just walks away.. Im like... wtf?
Anyway im suppose to hang out with this dude at 4 or 5 or something I think it was. But he switches the plans a couple of times. Till at some point its at 9. So im kinda like well fuck it, there is something shady about all this shit so im gonna plan something else. And end up hanging out with other people for awhile, till the dude is like at 830 are you still coming? Its like well dude it didnt sound like you wanted to do anything, and you said 9 anyway. And he is like oh no you can come now. Im like... umm.. ok..
Anyway I get there and obviously as I assumed Apple girl is up, she is pretty....unhappy to see me it looks like. I try to start a conversation about art, and if she ever got the art in the email I sent her. She is like oh no I never check my email...
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But you just gave it to me to send you stuff... wtf...
Anyway I play games with the BF for awhile and later get a text that she is sorry she is being moody she is just really tired.. I half believe it... I try to stay positive and text her something back later jokeinly like its ok ill forgive you this time =p. But whatever... Ive already pretty much am done with this shit...
I basically make one last attempt at thinking me and Apple girl are actually legit friends now. I message her one day we talk a bit, and im like do you want to hang out shes like ok let me take a shower first. So I message her a hour and a half later to see whats up, and all of the sudden she cant hang out anymore. And the BF isnt going to be there... Im like WTF does he have to be there? I dont get a response....
So Cassies birthday happens... again I see Apple girl before this and her body language is all weird to me...... I dont want to go.....
But I go... Apple girl is being cold to me again.. At some point she even changes seats and sits right next to me. And still doesnt acknowledge me.. Shes acting like she is disgusted by me even.. At some point she starts handing her phone over for everyone to see pictures and then when it gets passed to me I try to look at it and she says no.. Im like wtf.. So I go to grab it thinking she is joking. Like no, just kidding here. But she is like no again... Im super turned off.. Did I seriously just get treated like a creeper? Im really brain fucked now, I dont know what is going on. You sat right next to me just to make me feel shitty? Are you fucking kidding me? Im even wondering if maybe its teh cologne i wear I have no idea.. I go to leave... And she hugs me good bye.. And I try to confirm my suspicions/or save face whatever you want to call it. Im like can we actually hang out sometime. Shes like maybe someday....
someday.....
SOMEDAY?
wtf??
So I leave. And im sitting at home and im like.. I keep defending her and her BF who ive never heard one good thing about to people. And I keep getting treated like shit. Wtf is going on.
So I message her because I cant take it anymore and im basically like straight up what is your problem with me. Are you like disgusted by me? What did I do?
And it begins...
FUCK.....
I have no idea wtf to do... My friends can see the look of horror on my face. They are like what happened.. Im like you idoits kept saying shit and I accidently typed nervous to her now. And of course they didnt care, they were just like she is dum and sucks who cares lol.. But of course I did...
I thought about just saying oops wrong message. But I thought if I wrote that maybe she would think im desperate so I didnt say anything.. I could tell she was irked because she was just something just like I have to go take a shower and play with my kindle later...
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So... its not.. immediately terrible... I see her and she tells me something like with summer getting closer to ending that she isnt going to have 2 jobs so she will be more free to hang out or something.. I sorta take that as my in that I can ask her to hang out soon.. but I dont do it there...She invites me to some movie with some friends again.. Im actually pretty sick this day as well and get done wtih hospital stuff, but decide fuck it ill go.. still trynig to be friends with her and her friends.. I plan on if I can get her alone trying to tell her a joke or something. Like hey if you ever need someone to see Batman with for a 6th time with.. Kinda thing.. To ease that text from before .. But I never get the chance and we dont talk...
She messages me that she and her BF are having a bonfire or something.. Im feeling more werided out by her.. I just went to the movies with her again and I dunno.. I just get this weird vibe.. Her personality is just so fucking friendly randomly and then completely diff.. She keeps texting me if I will go to this bonfire over and over.. I keep telling her maybe, but she teases me saying she knows that I will go. And I start to hint at my displeasure of how are friendship is.. I tell her I feel awkward going and hanging out with all these people I dont know. Which is the truth.... Ive known her for a few months now, and she is friendly with me when its just me and her.. but when I see her in groups.. we dont talk.. And its weird... And I dont know any of her friends really anymore then I know her... Its kinda like why keep hanging out wtih people that I never get to hang out with alone... Its kinda weird.. I hint this a little bit.. but she is like no its ok are friends are weird you arent werid.. and just keeps telling me I know your going to come.. well of course you know im going to at least try to come you know im trying to get to know you, im just getting weirded out... sigh....
So whatever the bonfire happens. She messages me probably like 5 times come over, when are you coming over? Come in the pool!@?.. come over? Come over...
I was doing other stuff though.. so shrug? Anyway she sounds pretty entusastic about me coming over again.. And im sure as usual I will get there and we wont talk...
I plan on if I can get her alone to tell her that batman line.. but the first thing she says to me, is why didnt shawn come... Its like dammit.. And her body language is negative towards me and everything not even looking at me. And its like why is it like this dude... Are you like hiding that you are talking to me? This shit is so weird... Its already gotten negative....
Anyway also at some point its me her and this other dude sitting down looking at her phone showing videos.. for some reason im watching and then she is like o clayton doesnt care ill show him later and schoochs closer to him..... I was like I was watching.. And she was just like ill show you later....
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She gives me a lot of wierd vibes again.. Which is bizarre because once again she is super friendly with everyone else.. But me.. theres a coldness to her for no reason.....
At one point said dude and other dude(im not going to name, names here as it isnt important and just incase someone does see this well..)actually even make a joke about jacking off about her. In clear range for her to here. She doesnt say anything... And im just thinking man.. and im being treated like im the one being weird.. what is going on...
Some other stupid shit happens but again im treated like im not wanted there again.. and I decide next time im going to have to say something.. Its been going on for to long...
It doesnt help that ive had shawn and jenn in my ear as well about everything thats been going on as well... Saying things....
So the next time I see her at Kroger I try talking to her and im like hey is there something you want to tell me? And she is like no... I kinda laugh it off.. and I tell her while laughing like dude you make me want to shake you.. what is going on? Shes like oh no dont say that what did I do? Im like I know its weird that I told you I like you that your good looking etc before I even knew you. And I wish I could take that back and just be your friend beforehand but I obviously cant do that. So are you actually cool with us being friends. Because I feel like we arent...
She is like no no nothing is wrong its ok.... Im like... ok dude... And I walk away....
She later messages me somethiing like hey are you cool just being friends with me, because I want to be closer with you, but I dont want you to only like me like that. And im like dude yes I just told you I told you were beautiful for me, I found out you had a bf so I just said it for myself. I was fine being friends if you were actually fine being friends too. I dont want to be fake friends.. And she is like ok because I want to be good friends wtih you.. I also asked for her email because I found out she liked art as she was going to go to school I guess this coming semester for art, so I was like oh ok I scribble sometimes to and even was going to go to college for it at one point. So she gives me her email to send her some stuff... And thats that...
Im weirded out. .because honestly its like.... Im being freindzoned... while... not even being friends period with someone... I try to let it be....
A bit after that I get a message from Chris(havnt mentioned him yet but anyway)who is again not getting into the details basically tells me some story that sounds like Apple girl is using me. Now its not just Shawn or Jenn, one of her friends from totally her side is telling me something is going on....
Also since this conversation now things are deffintly weird.. when I see her it is not the same now she is acting cold to me when its just me and her. I ask her if she wants to hang out sometime because she told me she is now more free to do stuff. She is like oh ok how about tonight.. So she invites me over to hang out with her and some friends... Im not really to excited about it, and wasnt planning on doing it that night.. But im like.. whatever... I get there and basically I hang out for a hour and then they have to leave.. Its pretty pointless even coming.. they say sorry and the BF says hey why dont me and you hang out this week and play some games, as he heard I play games.. Of course this dude probably has no idea that when I say I use to play games I mean.. I use to make money playing games kinda good lol.. I agree....
Of course I get a lot of shit for going to hang out with him. As shawn doenst like him. And its like why would you ever hang out with him. But at this point im tired of hanging out in this group shit with out actually knowing anyone. And I still dont think anything badly of the dude, so ill go play games for a bit for something to do I guess... I see Apple girl at Kroger before I come, and she gives me some excuse that when I come over she will be a sleep.. Im like um ok.. And she just is really cold to me, and just walks away.. Im like... wtf?
Anyway im suppose to hang out with this dude at 4 or 5 or something I think it was. But he switches the plans a couple of times. Till at some point its at 9. So im kinda like well fuck it, there is something shady about all this shit so im gonna plan something else. And end up hanging out with other people for awhile, till the dude is like at 830 are you still coming? Its like well dude it didnt sound like you wanted to do anything, and you said 9 anyway. And he is like oh no you can come now. Im like... umm.. ok..
Anyway I get there and obviously as I assumed Apple girl is up, she is pretty....unhappy to see me it looks like. I try to start a conversation about art, and if she ever got the art in the email I sent her. She is like oh no I never check my email...
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But you just gave it to me to send you stuff... wtf...
Anyway I play games with the BF for awhile and later get a text that she is sorry she is being moody she is just really tired.. I half believe it... I try to stay positive and text her something back later jokeinly like its ok ill forgive you this time =p. But whatever... Ive already pretty much am done with this shit...
I basically make one last attempt at thinking me and Apple girl are actually legit friends now. I message her one day we talk a bit, and im like do you want to hang out shes like ok let me take a shower first. So I message her a hour and a half later to see whats up, and all of the sudden she cant hang out anymore. And the BF isnt going to be there... Im like WTF does he have to be there? I dont get a response....
So Cassies birthday happens... again I see Apple girl before this and her body language is all weird to me...... I dont want to go.....
But I go... Apple girl is being cold to me again.. At some point she even changes seats and sits right next to me. And still doesnt acknowledge me.. Shes acting like she is disgusted by me even.. At some point she starts handing her phone over for everyone to see pictures and then when it gets passed to me I try to look at it and she says no.. Im like wtf.. So I go to grab it thinking she is joking. Like no, just kidding here. But she is like no again... Im super turned off.. Did I seriously just get treated like a creeper? Im really brain fucked now, I dont know what is going on. You sat right next to me just to make me feel shitty? Are you fucking kidding me? Im even wondering if maybe its teh cologne i wear I have no idea.. I go to leave... And she hugs me good bye.. And I try to confirm my suspicions/or save face whatever you want to call it. Im like can we actually hang out sometime. Shes like maybe someday....
someday.....
SOMEDAY?
wtf??
So I leave. And im sitting at home and im like.. I keep defending her and her BF who ive never heard one good thing about to people. And I keep getting treated like shit. Wtf is going on.
So I message her because I cant take it anymore and im basically like straight up what is your problem with me. Are you like disgusted by me? What did I do?
And it begins...