GACKT BLOG 6/28/2010: Not Translation

[excused_early]

It's funny how only a few lines written by someone I've never met in RL can stab my heart so suddenly and deeply.
When did I relinquish so much power over to him?
Is that even healthy?
I try not to think about the obvious truth about the consequences of his lifestyle, fooling myself that he's superhuman, nothing can touch him.

And then, right from the

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[mun_chairudo]

[excused_early]

Yes, that's the bottom line, really...
All we can do is support him and send him our kiai while we receive strength from him.

But still, I sometimes feel like being his fan is the best and worst things in the world simultaneously.

*pinches G's cheeks HARD in the GIF*

[mun_chairudo]

I think we all are just terribly, terribly afraid of loosing someone we consider family...

Well, of course we don't know him, but because he has helped many of us become a better person (thus, achieved what he wanted to achieve.. or one of many things), we appreciate him a lot, not only as an artist but also as an inspiring person... and yeah, family.
Meh.

I hope he'll be alright..
Now I'm even more anxious towards that Europe stunt he plans to pull.
Oh well.

[excused_early]

I know right?
He can be so 'innocently' cruel sometimes...

*hugs you back ;__;*

[shiroki_yousei]

While it is amazing that he can always give his all in what he does, to the point of driving himself to exhaustion, at the same time it's heartbreaking to see and know how much he's punishing his own body for the sake of his craft, for the sake of finding his raison d'etre

[mun_chairudo]

I hope the both of you will be able to find sleep sometime soon :/

[excused_early]

So true...
To me, that's the biggest reason why I'm so drawn to him, and yet it's also the thing that scares me the most. I'm sure you know what I mean...

To me, he almost looks like a runaway train that just can't stop itself even though it knows it's going to breakdown at the pace it's going, but this runaway train also 'doesn't want to' stop because it knows it's carrying so many people, us, who can't find our way through the darkness without him. I know it sounds too theatrical and melodramatic, but I do think he feels a strong sense of mission and responsibility. And he'll never stop feeling this as long as he's alive, because he's just 'special' in that way. A chosen one.

Thanks, shiroki~~~ ;_;
I think I'll just go to bed tonight after all. I should feel more chipper tomorrow after a good night's sleep.

*joins you in the corner of your room*

[shiroki_yousei]

Exactly

[excused_early]

No, it's not just you.
I have to agree with you.
That's why I had to make this post.
Taking steroid to suppress fever to the point where he's internal organs start to malfunction is just suicidal.

[karadin]

Gackt's had a few near-death experiences, and after these, you tend to think every day, what if I had died? What am I going to do with the rest of my life? That's what makes Gackt so successful and driven, I don't think that's a bad thing, I don't think pushing himself is self-indulgent or self-destructive, it's for his spiritual well-being. I wish I could be more like that myself.

[excused_early]

Don't get me wrong, I agree with you 100% there.
I truly believe that his life (or his 'afterlife' as he calls it) really started when he nearly drowned.
And I know that he's doing it because it's simply something he MUST do.

But I'm not as strong as him and can't keep myself from thinking 'what if'.
So...., I'm just being a bit ranty in my post because of my own weakness, not because I doubt him (because I don't).

[karadin]

I don't think it's ranty to be concerned, I think though, as Gackt's fan for six years now, I'm getting to know the kind of person he is and I feel for him, but I can't let it make me too upset, I know his friends and family will never let things get too bad for him, they must be strong people to follow him in the first place.