GACKT BLOG 6/28/2010: Not Translation

[excused_early]

It's funny how only a few lines written by someone I've never met in RL can stab my heart so suddenly and deeply.
When did I relinquish so much power over to him?
Is that even healthy?
I try not to think about the obvious truth about the consequences of his lifestyle, fooling myself that he's superhuman, nothing can touch him.

And then, right from the

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[shiroki_yousei]

While it is amazing that he can always give his all in what he does, to the point of driving himself to exhaustion, at the same time it's heartbreaking to see and know how much he's punishing his own body for the sake of his craft, for the sake of finding his raison d'etre.

It's always saddening to know that he has a fever an is in the hospital, or that he fainted, but Xia is right, the only thing we can do is believe in him, send him our love and strength, support him whenever he needs it, tell him to take care of his health, to sleep more and even if he doesn't pay attention to our 'pleas', he will still know that there's a lot of people who care about him from the bottom of their hearts, that there's people who will always smile or cry due to his beautiful works of art.
He thrives in the love, support, and trust he gets from his DEARS, and the least we can do is send him that love, support, and trust from our hearts, even if deep down we feel like slapping him for being so reckless.

I hope you get a good night sleep soon, and you really shouldn't feel obligated to comment or post something, first you should get some well deserved rest. *hugs*

Now if you excuse I'm going to cry in a corner of my room... T-T

[mun_chairudo]

I hope the both of you will be able to find sleep sometime soon :/

[excused_early]

So true...
To me, that's the biggest reason why I'm so drawn to him, and yet it's also the thing that scares me the most. I'm sure you know what I mean...

To me, he almost looks like a runaway train that just can't stop itself even though it knows it's going to breakdown at the pace it's going, but this runaway train also 'doesn't want to' stop because it knows it's carrying so many people, us, who can't find our way through the darkness without him. I know it sounds too theatrical and melodramatic, but I do think he feels a strong sense of mission and responsibility. And he'll never stop feeling this as long as he's alive, because he's just 'special' in that way. A chosen one.

Thanks, shiroki~~~ ;_;
I think I'll just go to bed tonight after all. I should feel more chipper tomorrow after a good night's sleep.

*joins you in the corner of your room*

[shiroki_yousei]

Exactly.

He really is our Moon, he is that person whom everyone needs at a point in their lives, that person who stirs so many emotions and bring so much inspiration with his words and actions.
And you're right, he himself said it, remember? That even when he feels like he can't go on anymore, he's able to stand and give his all on stage, because of us. He knows he became an important part of our lives, he became someone we can always go to whenever we feel like no one will understand us, when we see that he won't give up, even if he's exhausted, we feel like we can also give a bit more. He created a home for us and because he knows we'll always look for him to find some strength, he'll be waiting there for us, pushing himself harder that ever, and that really shows how special he is, how focused he is in his mission to unite and heal our hearts with his music.
Being his fan is no easy job, it can be both hell and heaven, but it really is worth it because of everything we get from him.

You do that dear, if we need to feel sad, let's be sad today and then smile again tomorrow. Even though he's DoS, I really doubt he would want us to cry or feel sad, that's why tomorrow we need to smile for him and maybe call him a moron for making us suffer today. ^^

*hugs Val some more and gives he some tissue*

[excused_early]

You know, you're on exactly the same page as I am when it comes to G (and many more things ^^).
It's like...I don't need to explain my thoughts to you because you have them, too. <3<3<3

EDIT: OMG, I just realized I called you "Rinn"! I'M SORRY!!! XD
Well, the reason is this. You and Rinn seem to be thinking the same things as me all the time when it comes to G! ^^;
You guys are like mirrors of my mind. I know this is a sad excuse, but...it's the truth~~~!!
Sorry~~~... XP

[shiroki_yousei]

Awww, don't worry about it Valval, and I actually understand your reason quite well, I also feel that way with both you and Xia. And I don't really mind being called with the name of someone who always has such intelligent, mind opening, and wonderful comments. ^^

[mun_chairudo]

GACKT&Xia are stalking loving both of you. :)