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Yeah, so I feel like shit again today. I hate losing anyone, I hate losing someone that's part of my family. At least I know that I can feel, because I cried today on the way to this stupid book signing that my mom wanted me to go to. I hate that last year my grandpa died and this year, it's the other one. My dad just left to fly over to MN and he's pretty sure that on Sat everyone else is going there too because he's guessing that the funeral will be on Monday or Tuesday. He's not dead yet, but he's on life support and they are just waiting for all the kids to get there before they do anything. I hate this feeling, I hate it so much. Why does everyone have to die, why can't everyone just live forever....I know it's unrealistic and will never happen, but I hate seeing someone suffering and dying. Half of me doesn't want to see him so that I can always remember when I was little and how he always had cinnamon gum and even when I had my driving permit at my uncle's funeral and we drove to the store. He is the talkative and nice one, he just always seems so sweet and doesn't deserve to go through this. No one does.