you can't see that I'm the one...
So it's been another exciting night of watching movies and basically just flipping through numerous magazines. Right now I really don't feel like hanging out with anyone. Maybe it's just because I feel like shit and have for the past few days. I've realized that since that friday in Ann Arbor, I haven't really gone out and hung out with anyone, minus coffee with someone, but other than that, it's just doing stuff with my mom and brother. I know that sounds super dorky and usually I wouldn't do that at all....i've always tried to go out like every single night of the week, but lately i just have no desire. Some days it's hard enough to get up and begin the process of getting ready, which sometimes takes all day. I don't know, hopefully tomorrow morning I can get something else from my doctor to make me feel better. I know that this is not at all related to the guy dept., because I've been talking to different guys before him and I were done. It's crazy, I don't know what to do at all. Sometimes I worry that if I do find the right guy that I will ruin it because I'll just stop making effort and stop talking to him and it will just end. I guess I really shouldn't worry about stuff like that because I haven't had feelings like that yet. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore or why I'm doing it. I'm not like how I was before, I don't need to talk to 6 guys at once, I can't do it. It makes me feel terrible, because i hate when guys do that to me. I don't know, I don't want to think about this anymore, time for a nice long shower and some tea and maybe some bed.