I'm sorry for not being active on here, guys. My internet is really bad. Something's wrong with the bandwidth and it takes any heavy website (LJ, MySpace, Yahoo, etc. - in other words, my lifelines) ten minutes to load, and sometimes not at all. :P They're trying to fix it, and I'm running a defrag on my computer to see if that'll help any...bleah.

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My cousin visited today. I hate it when she's here. She always manages to make me feel like shit. Of course my parents fawn over her. My mom especially. They love her to death, because she's fucking perfect: She's got a condo in Orlando, has a business and Spanish degree from MSU, already makes six figures even though she's only five years out of ( Read more... )

I'm so mad at my computer; it's apparently really fucked up. I had to shut it down because something on the internet made it freeze, and when I restarted it, a black screen came up with a bunch of technical junk that basically translates into "Your hard drive is corrupted (oh help) or unreadable (NOOO!)." And apparently there's not a very good ( Read more... )

I want to lock myself in my room with my iPod and guitar and drown in the music until I don't exist. Everything's running around in my head again and I hate it, I hate memories that make me wake up screaming at night and unceasingly play like a fucking slideshow through my head during the day. I can't take it. It's eating me alive, trying to make ( Read more... )

I HATE finals. So much fucking studying, even for just two of them (all I have are Spanish and Algebra 2, the latter of which I am seventy percent sure I will barely pass). And I have English homework. I had to clean the entire house and do half the laundry today too. And now I have to babysit on Wednesday and Thursday for the separation-anxiety ( Read more... )

Only five more days. Just five more days, and I can get out of school, I can stop worrying about exams and band auditions and art projects and people and insomnia, I can forget all the shit that happened this year and just zone out, go back to being my nocturnal, philosophical, un-psychopathically crazy self. Forget everything. Just five more days ( Read more... )

First of all, an incredibly important announcement: HAPPY TWENTIETH BIRTHDAY (no more teenage!) to the marvelous sssuperkate ! You get a present!

( Have a present! )

I have a small question: What is so wrong with being pale? I don't get it. People constantly ask me if I ever tan, if I ever go outside, if I ever this, if I ever that, and it always seems so ridiculous. Why are people always bugging me about it?

For those who neither know me personally nor have seen a photo of me, I am very, very white. As in ( Read more... )

*coughs importantly* Let's get the announcements over with...if you haven't already, please, please go here http://enteringxghost.livejournal.com/25273.html and to the very bottom of the entry to fill out a survey! I will worship you forever and give you your favorite kind of cuppycake if you do. :D

Beginning rant now.

My English teacher is a bitch.

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I am drunk, lonely, and I feel like shit.

I don't get drunk unless I'm really, really unhappy, and right now, I think that fits the bill. But my parents are going to notice if the wine bottles keep disappearing.

I am the most fucked up thing on the face of the earth.

( Another knife in my hands, a stain that never comes off )