School was fucking horrible.

( Help me see the detached rawness of reality )

Meltdown.

I want to lock myself in my room with my iPod and guitar and drown in the music until I don't exist. Everything's running around in my head again and I hate it, I hate memories that make me wake up screaming at night and unceasingly play like a fucking slideshow through my head during the day. I can't take it. It's eating me alive, trying to make ( Read more... )

While the ages have passed
A photographic memory flips the images on and on in her haunted head
They never leave
Cruel man, dark man -
What have you done to her?

I kind of feel like shit. I'm so tired, so damn pessimistic. I've got way too much on my plate, my AP English exam's tomorrow, so much other stuff I just don't want to deal with right now ( Read more... )

I feel so, so tired and I don't know why. I've been way more insomniac than usual lately, and I have nightmares every night. I've been falling asleep in the armchair right after I get home from school, and even then I wake up every twenty minutes and can't get any sleep. I know I'm nocturnal, but it's never been this bad - I can usually function on ( Read more... )

I am so worn out. I don't feel good. Today was a bad day. I just feel...melancholy. Is that the right word? I kind of feel like being a bad kid and getting drunk and playing my guitar all night long, but one, I'm too lazy to get up and search out the wine/vodka, and two, I just want to sleep.

I haven't been able to sleep in ages. I keep having ( Read more... )