Vodka. Please.

[enteringxghost]

I want to lock myself in my room with my iPod and guitar and drown in the music until I don't exist. Everything's running around in my head again and I hate it, I hate memories that make me wake up screaming at night and unceasingly play like a fucking slideshow through my head during the day. I can't take it. It's eating me alive, trying to make sure no one knows what I'm thinking and acting normal and at the same time constantly playing the words and faces over and over in my mind. I want some fucking SILENCE.

I think I need to get drunk.