Tess was in her (what I call), "Fireside chat" mode so not overly therapeutic. Jennifer joined me for session, sitting adjacent me in the hotel room. Her and Tess seemed to mesh well, having several ideologies in common. She started the session with her and Jennifer talking about all my positive traits and how fun I was. I haven't felt fun since I ( Read more... )

Told Tess I had written up last season's notes, and sent them to Cass at her request, and that I would no longer be pursuing her. Tess asked, "How'd she respond to that?" I replied, "Honestly? She seemed relieved ( Read more... )

I started with the whole "dating other people" and why specifically that is such an absolute shit show for me specifically. In a word, my demisexuality. While it's true that I first became infatuated with Cass after experiencing her personality, it was in equal parts the yoga pants she wore around the house that week. Or, to quote Cass herself ( Read more... )

Cass missed the first half of the session, so I asked what the difference was between fear and anxiety, as I had always assumed fear was localized while anxiety was unspecified. Tess helped me understand that unlike fear, anxiety manifests itself through elevated heart rate and feelings of dread either generally, or with specific triggers. When I ( Read more... )

From Cass: For Tess: ask her the difference between self sabotage vs. Emotional unavailability.

From Tess: Self-sabotage is purposely doing things/behaving against your own best interest and/or the things you want out of fear of what it means were you to get them, while emotional unavailability is purposely closing yourself off from any form of ( Read more... )

Got a, "thumbs up" from Tess over Telehealth this morning when she found out I was in New Mexico. This resulted in the majority of the session reminding me to not only remain focused on the present, but to also remind Cass often to do the same. Funny enough, we've been reminding each other constantly during our conversations. I was also pleased ( Read more... )

At Cass' insistence we started the session by talking about my wife's shenanigans with the lawyer and all she's been doing. Tess wanted to know what I was going to do about it, "Take it laying down," or "Playing dirty right back ( Read more... )

What were the most important things in your life before your loss?
Transparency, vulnerability, reciprocity, and dialogue.

Who were the most important people in your life?
My wife, her best friend, and my two children.

What is one big thing you want to accomplish in your life?
To live happily ever after.

What do you imagine your life looking ( Read more... )

Telehealth session with myself and Cass; her second time in attendance.

Mostly I remember is Cass looking absolutely radiant on the video call <3

And Tess calling me, "driven."

Telehealth session with myself and Cass; her first time in attendance ( Read more... )