I'm writing today just because I have to document this!! Today was Zain's third day of daycare. The past two days, I would take him in, put him down and watch him go straight for the kids and the toys and start playing. He loves other kids, anywhere we go if he finds someone his height or close to it, he starts chasing them down until he can land a ( Read more... )

I was doing pretty good for a while. I became my own therapist, talking myself through everything. Putting everything into words helped make them clear, and that's what I was doing. Clarifying things, how I felt about them, maybe why they happened, what I wanted the outcome to be, and therefore what the best way to react was. And then how and why I ( Read more... )

Just a quick update. Zain's birthday was a success, we had a lot of fun and everyone came and had a good time. We took the bbq over to Knotty Pine Park next to the house and had the party there, same place we had the baby shower at. The weather was nice :) He got lots of cool toys and some really nice clothes, he loved his gifts :) We had a good ( Read more... )

I've always been pretty bad at keeping journals just because I always wanted to "save" them for important things. Like I thought if I write things that aren't important enough in them, I'm just wasting the journal. Now I want to write everything down, because I know that I have terrible long term memory, but don't have the time to do that. Summary ( Read more... )

I feel like I've dug up an old treasure, finding this journal. Its a rare and special treat to get to look back at yourself, the way you were and/or the way you were thinking, what you were thinking about, or going through, how you felt, and even compare it to how your are now. I remembered things about myself that were long gone, or buried so deep ( Read more... )

I miss my Grandma...

It seems to be getting harder, not easier...

Feb. 3 5:49pm ( Read more... )

He called me 'Unique'... ... .. ... ..

I am Happy... actually, really, truly happy. I have learned for the first time in my life how to really laugh, from my heart. How to smile because I want to, not because I think I have to ( Read more... )

I'm happy... and content... and satisfied....(most of the time).. and thats all that matters!

Life is not easy... it's not a smooth ride.. and it never will be...

But at least I can say I'm riding in the right direction.

I'm Lucky.