FRIENDS ONLY.

today was lovely. really. i can't believe my family got along so well. my cousin (she's eight) didn't get on my nerves at all. we played soccer for the longest time, and of course my dog had to play too, so the ball got all muddy, but we just kept playing, and i ended up getting filthy. i haven't been so dirty in a long time, but it was kind ( Read more... )

the mentally handicapped kid in my ceramics class called me stupid today. and then he called me blond. and then he called me a fake blond.

fucking awesome.

I know I'm lame, and i get really paranoid, but sometimes it REALLY feels like some of my closest friends are embarrassed to be my friend. Like, they lie about hanging out with me, and hide it from certain people. It kind of makes me feel like crap and question if they're really my friends. But if they're not, who is? Sometimes I just want to ( Read more... )

i hate being sick.
i hate cooking. i just messed up macaroni and cheese. is that even possible?
i suck.

ps: new icon. fucking sweeeeet.

EDIT
i'm never going to try talking to a boy again. let them come to me i guess. not that that ever works... but at least if i don't try pursuing them, i won't feel so stupid all the time.

i feel like death.

shiiiit. my throat it so sore, i seriously want to die. okay, not seriously... but still... it sucks.

no school pretty much rules though. especially since i have a project to start and finish my tomorrow. awesome.

so. tired.

last night was pretty rad though.

'am i a bad person?'
well... no. i couldn't tell him he was. i really wish i could just be a total bitch and not feel bad sometimes.

so maybe i have a crush... maybe. but it's not on the person everyone's going to think i'm talking about. so i feel bad. like... it should be someone else. oh well. can't help who you like, right?

today actually felt really good. everything was just sort of nice. i feel relieved.

i hate school. it's so boring and pointless. i was soooo late today. not only did i get up a half an hour late, but i didn't leave my house until like... 7:35. school starts and 7:47. yeah. but it was just gym, so i don't think she even counted it. we 'learned' to use a compass today. it was ghey. english is once again being a very ( Read more... )