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[echoesofempty]

today was lovely. really. i can't believe my family got along so well. my cousin (she's eight) didn't get on my nerves at all. we played soccer for the longest time, and of course my dog had to play too, so the ball got all muddy, but we just kept playing, and i ended up getting filthy. i haven't been so dirty in a long time, but it was kind of refreshing. my mom didn't seem upset at all today either. also refreshing. last night was nice. i felt sort of alone, but as the night progressed i just accepted that i'll probably be like that a lot and i should just grow accumstomed to it. so i did. it wasn't so bad.

i just wish you let me be right about something. anything. i wish you'd let me know something for once, instead of always triyng to be difficult & make things different than what they are. sometimes people go through the same things. i've been there. i wish you'd admit it.

i just feel like everything's different right now. it's somehow grounding. but i know as soon as i start to think about it, it'll be terrifying.