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I know I'm lame, and i get really paranoid, but sometimes it REALLY feels like some of my closest friends are embarrassed to be my friend. Like, they lie about hanging out with me, and hide it from certain people. It kind of makes me feel like crap and question if they're really my friends. But if they're not, who is? Sometimes I just want to be someone else. And then i get angry, because I feel like if certain people treated me better, I wouldn't feel this way. But i suppose it should be something I should fix on my own, and I should stop relying on other people. I think I really like this boy, but he just wants to get some. Bah.