Job search is not going well. At all. I would even go so far as to say it's going quite terrible.

I'm starting to get depressed and very scared about the future. I look at job listings, but gloss over so many thinking that I'm not qualified. Because I'm not. Every single one is really the same:

3-5+ Years experience with [Skill I've never used ( Read more... )

Why is it that I am invariably interested in women who seem uninterested in me. The kinda mixed signals make it difficult, although they seem to be... significantly less mixed lately.

It's hard to be confused about it when she spends part of the time talking about the guy she's interested in.

Sigh. Why am I such an idiot.

What is said:
"His voice does naughty things to me."

What I hear:
"Your voice, and by extension the rest of you, is inadequate."

I know it's never meant that way. It's just my mind being emo and my heart ignoring what I tell it.

(If you're reading this - and you know who you are - it's no big deal. I'll be fine, don't worry.)

"I keep hearing that you've changed. I think weather changes. We just keep making the same mistakes." - John Crichton, Green Eyed Monster, Farscape

I can be a pretty small and petty person at times. But I can also be a pretty big and forgiving person. Except this this time.

Raiding with my guild in WoW has become… difficult. Mostly because of a specific very small number of people who everyone is fucking obsessed about (except me). I just don't think I can do it ( Read more... )

It's been a rough week so far.

( work is slowly killing me... )

as vivid as it is - fills in all the gaps.

This painting more or less describes 90% of all of my relationships. I like it.

She emailed me back last night ( Read more... )

It's very ..odd.. seeing the way other people interact with a particular person, and realizing how fucking stupid you were.

I was feeling okay there for a couple days. Not so much at the moment.

*sigh*

Something I said in a previous ( friends locked ) post:
"Oh well, eventually this will all crash and burn in a massive mess."

Boy, was I ever right. Crash. Burn. Boom. Splat. Women are fucking batshit insane. (No offense to the females who read this, of course ( Read more... )