f minus 1.5 days and counting..
OH MY FUCKING GOD. it's so close i don't even know what to do with myself other than drive everyone around me crazy. i'm hyper, manic, horny (like, where the fuck is that coming from?), anxious, and crazy excited.
and i'm suddenly listening to trans and lesbian experimental hyperpop like i'm a moth orbiting the sun. lol
completely unrelated, but my mom told me tonight that after they returned from our family hawaii trip (it was a 50th wedding anniversary present) that my dad had told her he thought i had become a beautiful woman. i guess that took me about 2 hours to really process because then i burst into tears in the middle of quantum leap (the trans episode, so like i was already teared up, but.. turned it up to 11).
i can't even begin to express how grateful i am that we were all able to get together as a family one last time, and that he saw me and accepted me and loved me, without reservation. all he wanted to know about my transition was my assurance that my friends and co-workers were still treating me well and with respect, and that i felt safe.
and i'm suddenly listening to trans and lesbian experimental hyperpop like i'm a moth orbiting the sun. lol
completely unrelated, but my mom told me tonight that after they returned from our family hawaii trip (it was a 50th wedding anniversary present) that my dad had told her he thought i had become a beautiful woman. i guess that took me about 2 hours to really process because then i burst into tears in the middle of quantum leap (the trans episode, so like i was already teared up, but.. turned it up to 11).
i can't even begin to express how grateful i am that we were all able to get together as a family one last time, and that he saw me and accepted me and loved me, without reservation. all he wanted to know about my transition was my assurance that my friends and co-workers were still treating me well and with respect, and that i felt safe.