Food Issues Rant.
Blah.
So I went for a pizza - again, after having one on Friday and Sunday in the same place. I just can't resist it. I had a sausage pizza this time, with mozzarella and tomato. mmmmmmmmmm. After eating it, I felt gleeful and like I still had room for dessert. So I ordered a chocolate soufflé.
OH MY GOD that souffle. It was sooooo good. It was like chocolate orgasm. So I left with a huge smile on my lips, feeling like this is a great day.
On the way back, my guilt became overwhelming. Who eats pizza this often? And what kind of monstrous gluttonous blob who already weighs 200 pounds is going to order a chocolate soufflé after a SAUSAGE pizza?
Even if I told myself it's OK and not a moral issue and I didn't even eat all that much etc., etc., I couldn't help but get off at an earlier stop and walk a little. I felt defeated, yet relieved.
So. I have no idea what to think of my conduct today.
Eating a sausage pizza w chocolate souffle
a) a totally healthy and normal indulgence, no reason to feel guilty
b) omg u r such a piggy no wonder u r so fat oink oink
c) a sign that I'm a compulsive eater and should look into the reasons why I'm always doing this
Walking after said meal
a) good for you! It wasn't even that much exercise, just what you need in a day.
b) serves ur ight & u shud hav stayed outside 2 work out 4 real piggy
c) giving into your guilt and starting on a path that will lead to an eating disorder
Am I overthinking this? I did something relaxing - eating sth good. And I did something else relaxing - walking in the autumn forest a little, getting fresh air. These are both good things, yes? They don't have to cancel each other out or fight with each other?
Overthinking about eating disorders every frakking time
a) a good thing to consider, don't go too far into either direction
b) u r juts makin excuses fatty
c) a sign that I certainly have some kind of eating disorder and need help
I hate this culture and what it's done to me re: food issues.
So I went for a pizza - again, after having one on Friday and Sunday in the same place. I just can't resist it. I had a sausage pizza this time, with mozzarella and tomato. mmmmmmmmmm. After eating it, I felt gleeful and like I still had room for dessert. So I ordered a chocolate soufflé.
OH MY GOD that souffle. It was sooooo good. It was like chocolate orgasm. So I left with a huge smile on my lips, feeling like this is a great day.
On the way back, my guilt became overwhelming. Who eats pizza this often? And what kind of monstrous gluttonous blob who already weighs 200 pounds is going to order a chocolate soufflé after a SAUSAGE pizza?
Even if I told myself it's OK and not a moral issue and I didn't even eat all that much etc., etc., I couldn't help but get off at an earlier stop and walk a little. I felt defeated, yet relieved.
So. I have no idea what to think of my conduct today.
Eating a sausage pizza w chocolate souffle
a) a totally healthy and normal indulgence, no reason to feel guilty
b) omg u r such a piggy no wonder u r so fat oink oink
c) a sign that I'm a compulsive eater and should look into the reasons why I'm always doing this
Walking after said meal
a) good for you! It wasn't even that much exercise, just what you need in a day.
b) serves ur ight & u shud hav stayed outside 2 work out 4 real piggy
c) giving into your guilt and starting on a path that will lead to an eating disorder
Am I overthinking this? I did something relaxing - eating sth good. And I did something else relaxing - walking in the autumn forest a little, getting fresh air. These are both good things, yes? They don't have to cancel each other out or fight with each other?
Overthinking about eating disorders every frakking time
a) a good thing to consider, don't go too far into either direction
b) u r juts makin excuses fatty
c) a sign that I certainly have some kind of eating disorder and need help
I hate this culture and what it's done to me re: food issues.