My Head Hurts!
Yesterday was a big scare for us. A dear friend got a call that her 4 year old daughter who was at Grandma's house had a seizure. She has epilepsy and has had several. The last one was so sever that she stopped breathing. So with the child being out of town and the experience of the last one Mom was afraid that circumstances were grim.
This immediately took me back to May 12th and I lost control over my emotions. My wife picked me up from work and we went and did what we could for our friends. The good news is that I spoke to the lil sweetheart this morning and she sounded like a happy 4 year old. She still has some tests ahead of her but she is doing ok for now. I keep her in my heart.
Today we went to Grief counseling. As usual this is a very difficult 90 minutes. It is raw emotion and had to deal with. The main reason that I like going is because it is one of the few opportunities that I hear my wife speak her raw emotions. She usually keeps council with her friends and not me. I think I understand the "woman" connection but it is good to hear from her.
We are both afraid of forgetting our baby girl. That is why I am starting a web site for her. I did a lot of work on it a few weeks ago then I kind of stalled. Not sure why but actually launching it seems to be more difficult to do. I will try again tomorrow.
Oh yes. MY HEAD HURTS! It feels like I have a migraine coming on! I have taken medicine and still I hurt. I figure its a stress reaction. The pain goes nicely with my physical aches that feel as though someone has beaten me with a stick. Have I mentioned before that I don't want to live like this anymore.
I keep posting but I am not sure people are reading this. Except for 1 friend. I am beginning to think that I must be one of the few men who can talk about death. Maybe someone else will be able to be helped by this. I imagine not as it usually just rambling like today.
This immediately took me back to May 12th and I lost control over my emotions. My wife picked me up from work and we went and did what we could for our friends. The good news is that I spoke to the lil sweetheart this morning and she sounded like a happy 4 year old. She still has some tests ahead of her but she is doing ok for now. I keep her in my heart.
Today we went to Grief counseling. As usual this is a very difficult 90 minutes. It is raw emotion and had to deal with. The main reason that I like going is because it is one of the few opportunities that I hear my wife speak her raw emotions. She usually keeps council with her friends and not me. I think I understand the "woman" connection but it is good to hear from her.
We are both afraid of forgetting our baby girl. That is why I am starting a web site for her. I did a lot of work on it a few weeks ago then I kind of stalled. Not sure why but actually launching it seems to be more difficult to do. I will try again tomorrow.
Oh yes. MY HEAD HURTS! It feels like I have a migraine coming on! I have taken medicine and still I hurt. I figure its a stress reaction. The pain goes nicely with my physical aches that feel as though someone has beaten me with a stick. Have I mentioned before that I don't want to live like this anymore.
I keep posting but I am not sure people are reading this. Except for 1 friend. I am beginning to think that I must be one of the few men who can talk about death. Maybe someone else will be able to be helped by this. I imagine not as it usually just rambling like today.