What an insane week.

Remember when I was overly excited about everything earlier this week? The crazy LJ posts? The constant glee? Yeah, that was a major manic episode. Followed by a major depressive episode on Thursday that Iasted into the wee hours of Saturday morning. It was the first sign of mania since getting on my medication, and I managed to ( Read more... )

Opening night went off without a hitch, theatre gods be praised. I love Lisa. She is so on my wavelength sometimes, it's uncanny. Tonight was by far the smoothest and cleanest the show has ever been, and the more I do the show, the more comfortable I get in my character's skin so that I can fill some of the dead space that comes up during awkward ( Read more... )

It's really nice to have a real life again: doing a play, activism, making and keeping in touch with friends, working out really regularly, finding time for family, auditions, pursuing (and hopefully, eventually having) employment, planning for the future without panic attacks, and still managing my illness. There was a long period of time when I ( Read more... )

Finally, after much anticipation, my St. Louis entry!

I am so glad I went back, saw my friends, and had a great time with no complications. I have really missed Casey and Amy, and was relieved to find that all the best parts of our trio dynamic were very much intact. I think we all worried a bit that there would be something awkward in the way of ( Read more... )

I just had a small epiphany about why grad school is going to be so amazing, regardless of when/where it happens. I was at my audition, hanging in our green room with the MFA 1 and BFA 3 actors that were in charge of us for the day, and the two of them were talking about what they had due on Monday. BFA 3 girl was talking about this observation ( Read more... )

I vow to commit starting tomorrow and continuing forever. I had this sinking feeling tonight that got jostled out of me driving Casey home. I am really afraid to commit in this show, and it's killing my performance. Not killing it, I guess, but certainly not doing it any favors. I've never had that ridiculous acting fear of looking stupid. But I ( Read more... )