I had a minor and unexpected nervous breakdown today about missing Aaron and being alone for the rest of my life. Which was silly and provoked by nothing, but it happened nonetheless. It makes me feel so silly to miss Aaron as much as I do, because know how toxic that whole mess was and that getting back into it would bring a shitstorm of trouble ( Read more... )

After two months, I finally have therapy today. Heavens be praised. I have been so inconsistent in terms of bipolar issues these last four weeks that it's gotten a little scary. Very disorienting and illogical sometimes, like it was in St. Louis, which makes me really uncomfortable and very glad that I will finally be seeing my medical ( Read more... )

1. A 7 AM-2PM, $10/hr, half-day-on-Fridays job that I interviewed for ages ago via my staffing agency may soon be falling into my lap. Which is crazy, because it solves all the current problems I have with this job, namely the world's shittiest hours and a meager $9/hr. If I take this second job, I will be making the exact same amount of money in a ( Read more... )

What an insane week.

Remember when I was overly excited about everything earlier this week? The crazy LJ posts? The constant glee? Yeah, that was a major manic episode. Followed by a major depressive episode on Thursday that Iasted into the wee hours of Saturday morning. It was the first sign of mania since getting on my medication, and I managed to ( Read more... )

This is just getting silly, folks. How is it possible that I'm returning to these patterns? I don't like it. So it's time for a good things list so that maybe I can go to bed ( Read more... )

Still feeling good, so it's time for part two of the St. Louis trilogy!

We got up on Saturday morning and lounged around for a while. (Casey's offstage comment about Amy's geology story still makes me giggle.) After breakfast and lazily getting ready, we decided to go to the mall on Brentwood and spend Amy's giftcards. I haven't been shopping in ( Read more... )

Clearly I need to sleep more. I think it would make me feel less crazy, which would be very good indeed ( Read more... )

Note to self: NEVER, EVER forget to take your morning Vyvanse again. Failure to take this medication will cause you to cry all day and eat endlessly while losing the motivation to do anything. Seriously, never again. I spent all day trying to figure out what my problem is, and I realized at about 4 that I forgot my stupid meds this morning. It's ( Read more... )

1. Alex, my sweet, handsome, charming little cousin who I love like I think I'd have loved a little brother if I had one. He was so wonderful at his party tonight, and I love how much he loves me and enjoys my company. He's got one of my headshots framed on his dresser in his room. I love that. I love him ( Read more... )

What a crazy, up-and-down, wild week this has been, here and everywhere in the country. I am still reeling (in a fantastically good way) from Obama’s election. It’s so exciting to see him already start to transition into office, picking out his staff and cabinet and whatnot. Then, the other side of my political heart is just aching for California. ( Read more... )