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Well, my labor day weekend was interesting, to say the least. My Firday started out okay, for the most part. I called up my Aunt that doesn't know I am gay, and asked to stay yhe weekend with her. Yeah, being around her maked me uncomfortable sometimes, but I love being around her toherwise. It is alwasy fun over there. So, there I was at one of ( Read more... ) -
Clayton
Im so confused right now. Why is it that seems to be the quote of my life? And why have I jumped from one guy to another. Yes, I still like Dalton. A lot. But I know that he is either not gay, or he has not come out of the closet yet. Either way I can't control either situation. So, I started talking to Clayton. He is the epitome of what I like in ( Read more... ) -
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I havent posted in awhile. I am not sure why, but it seems like I am empty of inspiration. So, just a quick post to say I am alive. -
Knife in My Side
Wow, talk about being really depressed.... Well I feel more like the word "hurt" would be better. I feel so stupid for letting a boy get to me like this. Dalton told me today that he was into Dallas, my best friend. He asked me to talk to her for him. Stupid, stupid, stupid. I did not think I could like someone as much as I do Dalton. I used to not ( Read more... ) -
Hi- Hoh, Hi- Hoh Utter Criminality
Work today was SOOOO exhausting. In the middle of the day work calls and asks me to come in early and work until 8:30. Well, I was kind of mad but said I woud be in after lunch. So I come home, change, and am about to walk out the door when Dalton calls. I would have ignored the call, but I saw it was him. Dalton is, well, one of the cutest guys on ( Read more... ) -
Just When I thought we were done.... We go Deeper.
So, I spent the day with Dallas. AGAIN! hahaha. I love her so much. She is my absolute best friend. Well, her and my step sister. They are the only two people in the world I would give my life for, and the only two that I have discussed being gay in depth with. Actually, Jessica knows more about my tastes and preferences when it comes to guys that ( Read more... ) -
Fading Away
I am SO tired of feeling ninspired. All I used to want to do was create. Bake, cook, stir-fry, anything you wanted or I felt inspired to make, I would make. But now I don't even care. Things that used to hold my interest are boring. This sounds twisted, but I keep hanging ot with people so that I don't have to be by myself because I am tired of ( Read more... ) -
So... Next Step? Something Dramatic
Today I feel so strange. I am not sure why... Well, I think I may know. My Aunt thinks that I may be battling depression. When I first heard her theory I was pissed. Seriously? She was suggesting that I was battling depression? For the rest of the time I was at her house I would not even consider that as my probelm.... But here lately I have been ( Read more... ) -
Everything Comes to an End... I Decide if its Happy or Sad
Wow, this is my last full day in Montana. Tomorrow we have to leave here at like noon so we can be at the airport at 5 so I can board.... I am excited to be going back home. I havent seen my friends or other family for almost two months now, so being able to go back is fun ( Read more... ) -
Cutting The Strings
My mom and older sister have done all they can to make me give up hope on them. What I mean by that is the only reason I have kept in contactwith them is because there was a small part of me that hoped that maybe Chalyssa would turn back into the sister she used to be. The one that I would have gone to hell and back for. And that my mom could maybe ( Read more... )