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Well, my labor day weekend was interesting, to say the least. My Firday started out okay, for the most part. I called up my Aunt that doesn't know I am gay, and asked to stay yhe weekend with her. Yeah, being around her maked me uncomfortable sometimes, but I love being around her toherwise. It is alwasy fun over there. So, there I was at one of her firend's houses with her. I wanted to party. I have not been to a fun part in a long time. My Aunt buys me a bottle and I start matching people shot for shot. GASP! Yep, I know, I know, underage drinking is very wrong. Oh, well. I guess my mistakes are my mistakes. Talk about drunk. I had like 8 or 9 shots before I called it quits. I was so drunk I could barely walk. But I remember my Aunt asking me if I was gay and saying that the family rumor about a year ago was that I thought I was gay. Looking back I am so PISSED that she waited until I was drunk to ask me that. That is NOT a conversation I wanted to have with her when I was drunk. I told her the truth. I mean, I couldn't lie right now and turn around to take it back later. One thing I am not is a liar.
Other than that nothing happened but the weekend was fun. My Aunt just pretended that I never said anything, so whatever. If that is how she wants to deal then let her, its not my problem. On top of a cruddy coming out with my Aunt, I found out some really bad news on Monday. My oldest sister is now pregnant. Her and I are the oldest of all the grandkids. She is only SEVENTEEN!!! I am so pissed. I want to cry and I want to find the guy that I know is the father and just beat on him until I feel better. That is MY sister, I loved her before he ever did. What right did he have to even be having sex with her? Plus, he is younger than I am. I am so disappointed in my sister. Of all the bad things people used to predict about her, being pregnant before she was eighteen was one of the things I prayed most would not happen. Do I think she fucked her life all to hell? Kinda. Will I be here for her through it all? Sure will. I can't belive than in less than a year I could be an Uncle! Its crazy. I keep thinking about her, though... Her life is going to be so hard bringing a kid into it. Plus, my mother kicked her out of the house. That stupid bitch is so FUCKING psychotic that she thinks my sister did this just to spite her. And she had the gal to call ME a backstabber? Look at who is here for my sister when things are thick. Thankfully my Aunt said she can move in with her and she will help her through all of this..... So much stuff is crazy right now. My head is spinning.
Other than that nothing happened but the weekend was fun. My Aunt just pretended that I never said anything, so whatever. If that is how she wants to deal then let her, its not my problem. On top of a cruddy coming out with my Aunt, I found out some really bad news on Monday. My oldest sister is now pregnant. Her and I are the oldest of all the grandkids. She is only SEVENTEEN!!! I am so pissed. I want to cry and I want to find the guy that I know is the father and just beat on him until I feel better. That is MY sister, I loved her before he ever did. What right did he have to even be having sex with her? Plus, he is younger than I am. I am so disappointed in my sister. Of all the bad things people used to predict about her, being pregnant before she was eighteen was one of the things I prayed most would not happen. Do I think she fucked her life all to hell? Kinda. Will I be here for her through it all? Sure will. I can't belive than in less than a year I could be an Uncle! Its crazy. I keep thinking about her, though... Her life is going to be so hard bringing a kid into it. Plus, my mother kicked her out of the house. That stupid bitch is so FUCKING psychotic that she thinks my sister did this just to spite her. And she had the gal to call ME a backstabber? Look at who is here for my sister when things are thick. Thankfully my Aunt said she can move in with her and she will help her through all of this..... So much stuff is crazy right now. My head is spinning.