i can't wait to get a macbook ( Read more... )

hmm, im in a writing mood. so this entry might be somewhat entertaining. or not at all. whichever ( Read more... )

" we are here to ruin ourselves and break hearts and love the wrong people until we die."

will powers a bitch.

so it is 7:12 AM and i've been up since like 6 because i had to drive brian to work. of course his car broke down. convienent obviously at all times. he's lucky i love him. its just kind of frustrating that im always taking care of him, instead of the other way around. in time, im sure things will change. me and him are actually a lot better. we ( Read more... )

im not liking a lot of things right now.

1.brian being punished
2. my dad saying horrible things about me and to my face
3. getting my car taken away.
4.brian being punished when i need him
5. being fat
6. having short yellow hair.
7. being broke.

i need to move. anyone want to get an apartment by like jan 08? yeah didn't think so.

im not feeling a whole lot right now. theres a lot of hate twards myself that im just kind of not caring about anymore. i've been pretty lonley in general. more so mentaly than physicaly. im really indecisive about a lot. wiht brian and myself. i need to get a new job and join a gym. i wish i was taller.

i don't know who i am. i need vicodin. and really good sex. not just a fuck, but i want the feeling of love to be in there. i need to feel that every touch on me is him really feeling me.

im starting to just not care anymore.

might as well update since im not doing anything of importance ( Read more... )

theres so many things im trying to accomplish in my life right now, but i feel like im being held back because the help that i need is not there. only because no one thinks im capable of handling responsibility. in a way i feel over whelmed that there IS so much that im trying to do with myself, and im also confused what i want to do with my life. ( Read more... )