Good updates, yay!
Some of our production's original cast showed up to watch on Saturday, and I have taken three days to get out of my JFSKLDSJKA SQUEEEEEE mode. They said a lot of good stuff about the cast, set, and costume design, and the WRITER said that with our progress from what he'd seen two weeks ago (which already got good feedback from him), he expected to be working with us as professionals REALLY soon.
Also, I forgot that since the run has started, we don't have to do rehearsals for class anymore. Yaaaay, free time.
The only problem with that is that since MD-Friend wasn't here because of really bad luck/circumstances/whatever-you-call-it, I ended up going home and getting really wound up about him again.
I've been making efforts to stay in touch with him on Facebook, which is about the most I can do since I don't have his phone number. And it seems he's either dropped Improv as well, or he's just not showing up because he's not quite in his right mind enough yet. (Ancestors have mentioned that since this is the limit of what I can rationally do, feeling like I should be doing more is normal but can't be helped.)
It just sucks that he had to drop the production because of these circumstances, because he is REALLY GOOD.
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So I woke up really out of it on either really late Saturday or really early Sunday, and I was having that "trying to turn into an albatross and fly off because I CANNOT SLEEP" feeling again. Partly because of MD-Friend, partly because of "the original cast showed up and HOLY SHIT THEY LIKE IT."
I looked for Moritz, but the Chickasaw Warrior said he was checking on something, so instead I spent time with him and the kids. Things were going well until my heart started hurting again, at which Melchior came in with a doe's carcass. I didn't quite think to question it until the Warrior had already started roasting the meat and the kids went "YAY" and started eating some.
I'm just picking at the meat and for some reason the thought of my deer-totem ancestor hauling up a deer carcass squicked me out, so I'm like, "...Melchi, how did you get a deer?"
And he laughed and went, "I lured her in." I don't know why, but it totally puts me off the meat, and then Melchior goes, "Well, the meat's for the kids anyway. You need THIS." At which he cuts open the deer's chest and takes out the heart.
"EWWWW! Melchi, why do I need a deer's heart?"
"You have so much trouble being still. It's why you're always upset about things." So he hands the doe's heart to me and informs me that I'll have to eat it raw.
The deer had a very small heart--it could fit in my hand, and my hands are pretty small--but when I took a bite out of it, it started beating so loud and hard that I had trouble actually eating the rest of it.
When I finished, I could feel the pieces settling down and rejoining somewhere next to my own heart, and the urge to fly off stopped. But then my chest hurt even more both emotionally and physically--I think it was augmenting my own heartbeat and emotions? But I actually can't cry about it because I'm too tired and conflicted, so I'm clutching my chest and going, "MELCHI, THE DEER HEART ISN'T HELPING! IT'S MAKING ME FEEL WORSE!"
And he laughed gently and went, "That means it's working, little sister."
After Moritz came back from wherever he went, he smelled the deer-heart and gave a lot of "Awwww" vibes.
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So Sunday was all right. When I drove out on errands, I turned on the car radio and a really groovy song came on, but Moritz suddenly went "THISTHITHISTHISTHIS" and did the "show me the play" thing that I do with my play-writing meditations.
And I'm like, "Okay?"
"It's been a long time coming since I've seen your face.
I've been everywhere and back trying to replace
Everything that I've had till my feet went numb,
Praying like a fool that's been on the run.
Heart's still beating but it's not working,
It's like a million dollar phone that you just can't ring.
I reach out trying to love, but I feel nothing
Yeah, my heart is numb."
Then it got to the "with yooooou, I can feel agaaaaain" part that a lot of feel-good commercials use, so I looked it up. It's the appropriately named "Feel Again" by OneRepublic.
This is coming from the ancestor who, while cheerful, identifies with a suicidal character due to his tendency of getting overwhelmed with things. He's also giving vibes that the Big Play's version would be a duet, since he picked a song about faulty hearts right after I ate a deer's heart to gain stillness.
So, "Feel Again" is now on my iPod. It's so dance-y.
Also, I might need to make a new playlist for all the songs that the ancestors/gods have requested for it. I really don't want to hunt through my half-dozen existing ones.
Also, I forgot that since the run has started, we don't have to do rehearsals for class anymore. Yaaaay, free time.
The only problem with that is that since MD-Friend wasn't here because of really bad luck/circumstances/whatever-you-call-it, I ended up going home and getting really wound up about him again.
I've been making efforts to stay in touch with him on Facebook, which is about the most I can do since I don't have his phone number. And it seems he's either dropped Improv as well, or he's just not showing up because he's not quite in his right mind enough yet. (Ancestors have mentioned that since this is the limit of what I can rationally do, feeling like I should be doing more is normal but can't be helped.)
It just sucks that he had to drop the production because of these circumstances, because he is REALLY GOOD.
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So I woke up really out of it on either really late Saturday or really early Sunday, and I was having that "trying to turn into an albatross and fly off because I CANNOT SLEEP" feeling again. Partly because of MD-Friend, partly because of "the original cast showed up and HOLY SHIT THEY LIKE IT."
I looked for Moritz, but the Chickasaw Warrior said he was checking on something, so instead I spent time with him and the kids. Things were going well until my heart started hurting again, at which Melchior came in with a doe's carcass. I didn't quite think to question it until the Warrior had already started roasting the meat and the kids went "YAY" and started eating some.
I'm just picking at the meat and for some reason the thought of my deer-totem ancestor hauling up a deer carcass squicked me out, so I'm like, "...Melchi, how did you get a deer?"
And he laughed and went, "I lured her in." I don't know why, but it totally puts me off the meat, and then Melchior goes, "Well, the meat's for the kids anyway. You need THIS." At which he cuts open the deer's chest and takes out the heart.
"EWWWW! Melchi, why do I need a deer's heart?"
"You have so much trouble being still. It's why you're always upset about things." So he hands the doe's heart to me and informs me that I'll have to eat it raw.
The deer had a very small heart--it could fit in my hand, and my hands are pretty small--but when I took a bite out of it, it started beating so loud and hard that I had trouble actually eating the rest of it.
When I finished, I could feel the pieces settling down and rejoining somewhere next to my own heart, and the urge to fly off stopped. But then my chest hurt even more both emotionally and physically--I think it was augmenting my own heartbeat and emotions? But I actually can't cry about it because I'm too tired and conflicted, so I'm clutching my chest and going, "MELCHI, THE DEER HEART ISN'T HELPING! IT'S MAKING ME FEEL WORSE!"
And he laughed gently and went, "That means it's working, little sister."
After Moritz came back from wherever he went, he smelled the deer-heart and gave a lot of "Awwww" vibes.
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So Sunday was all right. When I drove out on errands, I turned on the car radio and a really groovy song came on, but Moritz suddenly went "THISTHITHISTHISTHIS" and did the "show me the play" thing that I do with my play-writing meditations.
And I'm like, "Okay?"
"It's been a long time coming since I've seen your face.
I've been everywhere and back trying to replace
Everything that I've had till my feet went numb,
Praying like a fool that's been on the run.
Heart's still beating but it's not working,
It's like a million dollar phone that you just can't ring.
I reach out trying to love, but I feel nothing
Yeah, my heart is numb."
Then it got to the "with yooooou, I can feel agaaaaain" part that a lot of feel-good commercials use, so I looked it up. It's the appropriately named "Feel Again" by OneRepublic.
This is coming from the ancestor who, while cheerful, identifies with a suicidal character due to his tendency of getting overwhelmed with things. He's also giving vibes that the Big Play's version would be a duet, since he picked a song about faulty hearts right after I ate a deer's heart to gain stillness.
So, "Feel Again" is now on my iPod. It's so dance-y.
Also, I might need to make a new playlist for all the songs that the ancestors/gods have requested for it. I really don't want to hunt through my half-dozen existing ones.