so i feel a bit lost. somewhat incomplete. out of my element. really confused. and bored ( Read more... )

i would love to break down these pretentious barriers ive surrounded myself with. lighten up, bitch! youre in college! people do bad things in college so that they learn not to do them when it really matters in the real world. maybe you should go dancing...let loose...cut a rug...im done.

food,
steph

im a huge bitch.

whats worse?

im totally okay with it.

so i hate winter, but april is coming! that means easter, my birthday and warmism weather ( Read more... )

hangovers are a bitch. now im writing this because ive woken up with one everyday for the past week now. some are worse than other, yet it still doesnt make you feel better in the morning. the funny thing is this: I HAVENT HAD AN ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGE SINCE SEPTEMBER 20 SOMETHING. a side effect of this medicine, alone with constipation, dizziness, and ( Read more... )

how did i allow myself to get this far?

i wouldnt wish this feeling on anyone. im hungry, tired, unfocused, exhausted, and worst of all anxious and nervous all the time. i just want the good feeling back. but its not going to get here without my help. so i need to help myself before i can let other people in. eating would help sleeping. sleeping would help eating. it all would help the ( Read more... )

christmas was definitely good. all the guilty feelings are going away. i felt bad for being mean for a day. but no more. not worth it. i just want someone to cuddle with. someone who smells good. he smelled good. ive been thinking about the past trying to figure out if its him i miss or having a boyfriend. i think its mostly having a boyfriend. it ( Read more... )

i havent slept in 3 weeks and today it all became clear. i was supposed to go to garutachi tonight with everyone important and i decided not too because i didnt want to get trampled on when i fell asleep all of a sudden on the dance floor. that and i didnt want to be a complaining carla. we dont like those. or patty pessimistic. or debbie downer. i ( Read more... )

when did he become so infuriating and such an asshole? oh i remember! this summer. when he started hanging out with highschoolers and hit year TWO at tropical smoothie cafe and didnt stand up to his daddy to go to a great college that could have changed both of our lives. but thats okay. hes definitely not worth it. he actually thought that we ( Read more... )