fuck fairfax
so i feel a bit lost. somewhat incomplete. out of my element. really confused. and bored.
this whole relationship thing is hard. i mean im having fun. but im not used to someone being so available yet not seeing him all the time. i only know semi-long distance relationships. the kind where when you see him youre always with him bc you have to soak each other up before you have to go again. this whole weird not hanging out all the time thing is different for me...which i know makes me sound crazy and possessive but thats not how i mean it. its all i know. ill get over it i know. im also worried that i still am feeling no emotion. but i think im jaded by fairfax. i hate this city. its a shitbox. masons okay. virginia beach is home. and nothing will ever change that.
i should go to bed before i get too emo...wait...too late.
god im so lame.
alright i cant wait to go home and see my mom and dad and sister and DOG! and sam and her mom haha. and the cookie shop.
life is such a strange thing. you never know whats right or whats wrong when it comes to really important "life altering" decisions.
miss you vb,
steph
this whole relationship thing is hard. i mean im having fun. but im not used to someone being so available yet not seeing him all the time. i only know semi-long distance relationships. the kind where when you see him youre always with him bc you have to soak each other up before you have to go again. this whole weird not hanging out all the time thing is different for me...which i know makes me sound crazy and possessive but thats not how i mean it. its all i know. ill get over it i know. im also worried that i still am feeling no emotion. but i think im jaded by fairfax. i hate this city. its a shitbox. masons okay. virginia beach is home. and nothing will ever change that.
i should go to bed before i get too emo...wait...too late.
god im so lame.
alright i cant wait to go home and see my mom and dad and sister and DOG! and sam and her mom haha. and the cookie shop.
life is such a strange thing. you never know whats right or whats wrong when it comes to really important "life altering" decisions.
miss you vb,
steph