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[cristoff_eleni]

I remember being here at the hospital, I remember them doing things and asking questions and things hurt and eventually being given something to make me sleep when I would not rest. They kept asking me about gang activity, especially seeing the old knife wounds and the scar from the crossbow bolt. I could not even summon the strength to speak to

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[_eva_c]

Cristoff is lost and I can't seem to find him, I go from room to room in this house that I know is ours but it's different, bigger, darker. He's here somewhere, I know he is and if I can just pick the right room he'll be there and everything will be okay again. And then suddenly he is, I hear his voice and I answer him in Rom, telling him it's good to see him too. But when I turn around to smile at him, he's gone and the panic has come back. It jolts me awake and I almost fall out of my chair, my half dreaming self thinking I'm still moving, searching rooms

[cristoff_eleni]

I lean into the kiss on my forhead, it feels normal, I need normal at the moment.

"Like perhaps I was shot and left in the woods. How are you doing?"

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He's making jokes and as bad as it is, it makes me feel better.

"That would be because you were shot, Cristoff." I smile at him, trying to keep this lightness but I'm afraid my eyes betray me as I look at him. "I'm good, I'm not the one that's in the hospital this time."

And now I can't hide the seriousness that's on my face, because my god, he was shot. "Is that what happened, did someone shoot you and leave you in the woods?"

[cristoff_eleni]

"Yes. I awoke out there, someone drugged me and left me there. Then they decided to try and hunt me down."

The little girl is asking me aren't I going to tell her that they all died, that I played God in the woods and I know someday she will need to know it was my own actions that brought the hunt on me.

"I wish to go home."

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I think about all of the things he's told me about how Rom are treated and it makes me angry again, but it also makes me understand. "What were they trying to do to you? The ones from before, because I know you had a good reason."

Something else comes to my attention suddenly; he said this happened years ago but he was only now being sought out for it. My stomach drops, because I think I know the answer to the question I'm about to ask. "Why did they come after you now, if it had been so long? And how did they know how to find you here?"

[cristoff_eleni]

"They were not really talking to me while they were trying to kill me. I do not know." I am keeping my attention focused on her eyes and I feel like such a coward clinging to her hands like she's a lifeline keeping me from sinking.

"They did nothing to me." but you played god and took them out didn't you?

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I give him a look, I don't know if he's being sarcastic but I don't think now is a good time for sarcasm. Yet here I am about to add some of my own. "Well you know how people that are trying to kill you usually monologue and tell you how evil they are or why you deserve to die, that's how we're able to kill them first

[cristoff_eleni]

"Drabarni I have been in Italy many times since then, it is not as if there has never been opportunity for them to see me. And truly I look different than I did then I did not think there would be people looking ten years later who recognized me. Do no feel guilty for marrying me there." oh there is no end to the ammunition I am giving the girl and the things she says makes me turn and look at her again, the words on my lips to tell her to shut up.

"They were attacking a girl from the tribe. So no they did nothing to me but I stopped them by taking their lives."

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Did he just say it didn't matter? Is he shutting me out again? "Cristoff, please tell me?" And now I sound as scared as I feel and I hate it, hate that I'm having a hard time being strong here.

[cristoff_eleni]

I can take anything but the pain in her voice and the fear. I will always try to fix that if I can, but I do not know if what I say will make it go away or make it worse.

"She tells me that I am being punished. I have taken lives but I was trying to protect people." sure the little voice says, so you played judge jury and executioner, how convenient. And what do you think the police here will do when they know you're a cop killer? Do you think they will let you be? No they hunt down cop killers don't they?

"Please, make her stop. I do not want to listen anymore."

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He's being haunted, whether by a true spirit or some kind of Sunnydale special or his own conscience, I don't know. What I do know is that I will do whatever I can to make it stop because seeing him like this? It's not only hurting him, it's killing me and I will not let this happen to him

[cristoff_eleni]

She laughs and tells me this one is good, what a show she puts on for me.

"I..I will try. But not here, and no drugs, they make it hard not to listen."