I remember being here at the hospital, I remember them doing things and asking questions and things hurt and eventually being given something to make me sleep when I would not rest. They kept asking me about gang activity, especially seeing the old knife wounds and the scar from the crossbow bolt. I could not even summon the strength to speak to
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It takes me a minute to remember where I am; the hospital. I quickly look over at Cristoff's bed and see him looking at me and oh god, he still looks broken. I want to cry at the way he looks but I won't, I have to be the strong one now so I smile softly at him instead and make a conscience effort to keep my voice even.
"Hey, baby." Encouraged when I manage to sound somewhat normal, I get up off of the chair and go to him, smiling before brushing his hair back from his forehead and planting a kiss on it. My eyes close for a moment and I'm grateful again that he's physically okay before I pull back and sit on the edge of his bed. "How are you feeling?"
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"Like perhaps I was shot and left in the woods. How are you doing?"
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"That would be because you were shot, Cristoff." I smile at him, trying to keep this lightness but I'm afraid my eyes betray me as I look at him. "I'm good, I'm not the one that's in the hospital this time."
And now I can't hide the seriousness that's on my face, because my god, he was shot. "Is that what happened, did someone shoot you and leave you in the woods?"
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The little girl is asking me aren't I going to tell her that they all died, that I played God in the woods and I know someday she will need to know it was my own actions that brought the hunt on me.
"I wish to go home."
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The fact that he wants to go home barely registers, I'm completely taken over by this rage that someone would actually hunt him like an animal. "I'll take you home when they say it's ok for you to be released, baby."
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"No, I wish to go home now. Please find me some clothes and take me out of here." my voice breaks a little and I try to steady it.
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Him insisting on going home worries me, though. "Cristoff, you were just shot. I know it sucks being in the hospital, but you could injur yourself more if you leave too soon." His voice sounds slightly desperate and I can't deny him anything in normal circumstances, there's no way I can in this one. "I haven't gone home to get you any clothes yet, maybe I can have something delivered from the mall?"
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"I do not wish the deaths traced to you, please ask Yuffie as soon as you can to remove them." I catch a hold of her hand, desperate to hold onto something real, something that doesn't tell me how horrible I am and how I will kill again and again.
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I hold his hand, trying to give him whatever strength and comfort I can but I'm not feeling a lot of it myself. "You did what you had to, Cristoff. It was self defense, you or them."
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"I will be fine, but no more hospital, no more drugs, I just need to leave."
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I bring his hand up to my lips and kiss his fingers before I ask what he meant, although I think I know. "This time? Cristoff, it was me or him last time, and you did what you had to then, too."
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"What makes you think Julian is the first man I killed?" my voice is raw.
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I don't know if he'll tell me, and he doesn't have to. There really is nothing he can say that would ever change the way I feel about him. "But you don't have to tell me if you don't want to."
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"I know." I know that she will always love me, just as I will always love her, but now I worry that I may have to kill again to protect that.
"They were police, from Italy, they were trying to avenge their comrades."
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