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[cristoff_eleni]

I remember being here at the hospital, I remember them doing things and asking questions and things hurt and eventually being given something to make me sleep when I would not rest. They kept asking me about gang activity, especially seeing the old knife wounds and the scar from the crossbow bolt. I could not even summon the strength to speak to

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[_eva_c]

I give him a look, I don't know if he's being sarcastic but I don't think now is a good time for sarcasm. Yet here I am about to add some of my own. "Well you know how people that are trying to kill you usually monologue and tell you how evil they are or why you deserve to die, that's how we're able to kill them first."

I drop the sarcasm quickly when I tell him my thoughts on how they found him here. "Maybe, did they know it was you that killed the cops year ago? Nevermind, of course they did or you wouldn't be in the hospital right now. Because they probably saw us, saw you, when we were in Italy." Saying it outloud makes me believe it and it brings the guilt, feeling responsible for why we were in Italy in the first place. "We never should've gone there, we should've just eloped in Vegas or someplace tacky like that." I'm talking mostly to myself when I say it, but I look at him and know he heard it. Izzy's words once again come back to me and I make myself shove the guilt away, he doesn't need me feeling like that right now.

I drop it and go to what he said about the cops from long ago, running my thumb over his hand absently. "They did nothing to you? I don't believe that, they had to of done something because you're not a cold blooded killer, Cristoff. There was a reason for it."

[cristoff_eleni]

"Drabarni I have been in Italy many times since then, it is not as if there has never been opportunity for them to see me. And truly I look different than I did then I did not think there would be people looking ten years later who recognized me. Do no feel guilty for marrying me there." oh there is no end to the ammunition I am giving the girl and the things she says makes me turn and look at her again, the words on my lips to tell her to shut up.

"They were attacking a girl from the tribe. So no they did nothing to me but I stopped them by taking their lives."

[_eva_c]

I frown and look over my shoulder, for a minute it seemed like he was going to say something, but not to me. No one's there, maybe his eyes were just drawn to someone passing in the hallway. "Cristoff," I say his name hoping to make him look at me again. He doesn't seem as...I don't know, unhinged maybe, when he's looking at me.

"See, I knew there was a reason. You were defending her, same as you did me when Julian was in our home." I'm very matter of fact about this because I know it's true, there's no way there was no good reason for him to kill someone.

[cristoff_eleni]

She speaks my name and it draws my eyes back to her. She is desperately worried for me I can tell, and there is nothing I can do right now to reassure her. I am scared, and I do not know how to not be scared right now.

"Do not leave me alone, I cannot stand being alone right now."

[_eva_c]

Oh god, this is new, I'm not used to him being afraid. And he is, I can tell by his voice and the way he holds my hands. It makes me afraid for him, because I get irrational when I perceive he's in pain and to actually see it...I don't know if I can convince him that everything will be okay like he does for me when I'm like this.

But he needs me to and Iz was right; you don't think you just do it. I settle myself on the bed next to him, wrapping an arm across him protectively and leaning down to kiss his temple. "I will never leave you alone, Cristoff. You are my world, I could no more leave you than I could quit breathing and stay alive. Whatever this is that's scaring you, I won't leave you alone to go through it by yourself." By the time I finish my voice has gone from a quiet reassurance to a fierceness that I feel in my soul. This man will never have to face anything without me there to help and protect him.

[cristoff_eleni]

"Miri kushti Romni, Devlesa araklam tumé." I murmur to her, my beautiful wife, god has brought you to me. Closing my eyes for now I can ignore the voice that tells me things I do not want to hear.

[_eva_c]

I stroke his hair and whisper words of love to him in Rom. I lean my head against his when he closes his eyes, hoping he can get some rest while we wait for his clothing to be delivered. Even though I'm unsure how wise it is to let him leave the hospital, I want him home where he'll feel safe and where I can take care of him.

"Your clothes will be here soon and I'll take you home. You should try and sleep while we're waiting, I'll get the doctor to come in here and take care of you being released."

[cristoff_eleni]

I do not dare sleep, she talks while I sleep. And if I sleep they may drug me again to make me stay. The longer I stay the more danger I feel I am in.

"I will rest, but I do not think I will sleep. Do what you need to for my release. I will leave against medical advice I do not care."

[_eva_c]

This worries me, he needs to sleep so he can heal. "I'm taking you home with me, Cristoff, they won't keep you here." I kiss his temple again, my voice quiet and concerned. "What are you afraid of, baby?"

[cristoff_eleni]

"The girl." no wait that is not right, do not talk about her it will make it difficult to be believed. "I just do not want to sleep here. I will at home."

She is mocking me and I am slipping and looking at her again.

[_eva_c]

"Girl?" Other than him being scared, his behavior hasn't really been that odd, but now I'm beginning to get scared myself that something still isn't right with him. "What girl?"

I look down at him and notice he's opened his eyes again and is looking at a spot in the room where there's nothing more than a chair and a picture on the wall. "Cristoff, I can't help you if you don't tell me."

[cristoff_eleni]

"No, I did not mean the girl, I do not know what I meant." I drag my eyes away from her and back to Eva. I finally decide she may as well know how crazy I am right now. "The girl in the corner, she's talking to me and telling me things, but you cannot see her."

[_eva_c]

I look at him, then over to the empty corner and back again at him as a chill makes it's way up my spine. Because looking into his eyes, I can see he really believes it and god help me, but if he really believes it? I can't automatically dismiss him as having a mental breakdown, not only because this is Sunnydale but because I've grown up with spirits. I try and keep my voice steady, I want him to know if he says there's a girl then I believe him until proven otherwise.

"Like a ghost, a spirit? What is she telling you, baby?"

[cristoff_eleni]

"I do not know, people walk through her." I do not want to tell her what she says, and she is telling me it does not matter, they will humor me and tell me that they believe me but they will not really. And I can tell that she is trying to believe me but the tone of her voice makes me want to hide.

"It does not matter, I will not listen." But I will I have and I cannot seem to stop myself.